Vine de nada
Oct. 19th, 2009 10:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yuuagoYesterday was not so good. But today... today was better. This morning I had a little talk with a friend of mine, and she said some things that really did make me feel better. So that was a good start to the day, and the rest of the day went well too. It helps that it was warm and the sun was out, I think. It really, really improves my mood.
Not everything went well today. Shortly after supper I was hit with a bit of melancholy again while I was doing homework. But that didn't last long. I was fine. It's all fine. What I should do - and what I have been trying to do - is concentrate on the good things. Getting better takes time, and it comes in steps.
So. Today I cleaned my house. I really, really needed to do that. I know that. So I vacuumed and washed everything from top to bottom. The washing, I should have done that two weeks ago. I really needed it. So, it's good that I did that. This was in the late morning and early afternoon. Because I had some bills to pay, I went downtown; I was out of the house by 2 PM. I took my camera with me. It was a warm day, maybe as much as +3C, and it was bright and sunny out and the sky was very blue. Anyway, when I got down there, I found out that I had more in the bank than I thought. It's all going to go to bills and such, but even so, it's good to know that I'm still going to be okay for a few months. Until December is finished, at least.
When I walked home the sunlight and the fresh air filled me with such a good feeling. I can hardly describe it. It seemed like most of the bad feelings I'd had over the weekend were just washed away. It was good. So I got out my camera and took some photos. The river. The trees in the park - their leaves are starting to turn. Some new graffiti on the rocks and down on Broadway, scrawled on the side of Lydia's Pub. Very interesting stuff, that - I'm not sure when I'll find the time to sit down and edit them, but at least I have the photos. We'll see how it turned out. It was so bright outside, and the light was in my eyes half the time, it made it difficult to determine what I was shooting at. Then I came home - and now I'm doing laundry.
The package I was waiting for arrived. Good. I was annoyed that the post-carrier just set it down in the foyer with the mailboxes; they aren't supposed to do that - they're supposed to knock on the door and get someone to receive it. But, anyway. A film was one of the things in that order - titled Dear Frankie - I saw it with my aunt a few years ago, in theatres. I can't quite remember how the story went, just that I enjoyed it very much. So, there we are. I remember when we were watching it, my aunt kept whispering at me to tell her what they were saying; she couldn't figure out those bloody Glasgow accents.
There were a few other little things, and also one of those books that's mostly made up of photographs - very little text, that sort of thing. Well, this one has photographs from all over Finland, and I spent a while today going through that. It was kind of a strange feeling, because so much of what I was looking at - the photographs of the northern areas, I mean - I'd swear, it looks just like where I grew up. So much like northern Alberta - just a bit flatter, with a bit more water. The trees are similar, but you can tell if you look closely, they're not quite the same. Still, if just glancing, I'd think I was looking at a photograph taken somewhere not far from Fort McMurray. Looking at that, it made me a bit homesick, which is ridiculous because it isn't Alberta, it's some place that's very far away and very different from Canada - but still, that's how I felt. How strange.
I'm not sure how tomorrow will go. Right now I'm at the point where I have to take everything one day at a time. It could turn any way, and some days are better than others. But we'll see. I'm going to do my best to pick myself up. Last week was not good for a variety of reasons, and I need to try to fix things again. We'll see.
I only realized this evening just how close Halloween is. I don't celebrate the 31st as Samhain; for me, new year is in January. But I do try to do something for it, in any case. I'm glad that it'll be on a Saturday this year - that gives me more downtime, more time to do my thing. When it's on a day that I have class, it tends to be more stressful, because I'm trying to work around the time spent in the classroom. Same deal with Equinox, I suppose. It's much worse at Solstice, though. I find Winter Solstice such a frustrating time, because I want to do my thing, but at that time I'm usually at my mum's house, and I can't... The best I can manage, usually, is getting outside to go for a long walk. Ah, well. We'll see how that goes this year.
Not everything went well today. Shortly after supper I was hit with a bit of melancholy again while I was doing homework. But that didn't last long. I was fine. It's all fine. What I should do - and what I have been trying to do - is concentrate on the good things. Getting better takes time, and it comes in steps.
So. Today I cleaned my house. I really, really needed to do that. I know that. So I vacuumed and washed everything from top to bottom. The washing, I should have done that two weeks ago. I really needed it. So, it's good that I did that. This was in the late morning and early afternoon. Because I had some bills to pay, I went downtown; I was out of the house by 2 PM. I took my camera with me. It was a warm day, maybe as much as +3C, and it was bright and sunny out and the sky was very blue. Anyway, when I got down there, I found out that I had more in the bank than I thought. It's all going to go to bills and such, but even so, it's good to know that I'm still going to be okay for a few months. Until December is finished, at least.
When I walked home the sunlight and the fresh air filled me with such a good feeling. I can hardly describe it. It seemed like most of the bad feelings I'd had over the weekend were just washed away. It was good. So I got out my camera and took some photos. The river. The trees in the park - their leaves are starting to turn. Some new graffiti on the rocks and down on Broadway, scrawled on the side of Lydia's Pub. Very interesting stuff, that - I'm not sure when I'll find the time to sit down and edit them, but at least I have the photos. We'll see how it turned out. It was so bright outside, and the light was in my eyes half the time, it made it difficult to determine what I was shooting at. Then I came home - and now I'm doing laundry.
The package I was waiting for arrived. Good. I was annoyed that the post-carrier just set it down in the foyer with the mailboxes; they aren't supposed to do that - they're supposed to knock on the door and get someone to receive it. But, anyway. A film was one of the things in that order - titled Dear Frankie - I saw it with my aunt a few years ago, in theatres. I can't quite remember how the story went, just that I enjoyed it very much. So, there we are. I remember when we were watching it, my aunt kept whispering at me to tell her what they were saying; she couldn't figure out those bloody Glasgow accents.
There were a few other little things, and also one of those books that's mostly made up of photographs - very little text, that sort of thing. Well, this one has photographs from all over Finland, and I spent a while today going through that. It was kind of a strange feeling, because so much of what I was looking at - the photographs of the northern areas, I mean - I'd swear, it looks just like where I grew up. So much like northern Alberta - just a bit flatter, with a bit more water. The trees are similar, but you can tell if you look closely, they're not quite the same. Still, if just glancing, I'd think I was looking at a photograph taken somewhere not far from Fort McMurray. Looking at that, it made me a bit homesick, which is ridiculous because it isn't Alberta, it's some place that's very far away and very different from Canada - but still, that's how I felt. How strange.
I'm not sure how tomorrow will go. Right now I'm at the point where I have to take everything one day at a time. It could turn any way, and some days are better than others. But we'll see. I'm going to do my best to pick myself up. Last week was not good for a variety of reasons, and I need to try to fix things again. We'll see.
I only realized this evening just how close Halloween is. I don't celebrate the 31st as Samhain; for me, new year is in January. But I do try to do something for it, in any case. I'm glad that it'll be on a Saturday this year - that gives me more downtime, more time to do my thing. When it's on a day that I have class, it tends to be more stressful, because I'm trying to work around the time spent in the classroom. Same deal with Equinox, I suppose. It's much worse at Solstice, though. I find Winter Solstice such a frustrating time, because I want to do my thing, but at that time I'm usually at my mum's house, and I can't... The best I can manage, usually, is getting outside to go for a long walk. Ah, well. We'll see how that goes this year.
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Date: 2009-10-20 04:36 am (UTC)i see you are feeling a little blah
so here is a gerbil
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Date: 2009-10-20 04:38 am (UTC)I do like rodents - when they are not coming into my house uninvited.
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Date: 2009-10-20 04:41 am (UTC)finland
because it's an adorable fattie
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Date: 2009-10-20 04:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-20 04:51 am (UTC)want some sunflower seeds
your pal estonia the little dwarf hamster is coming over soon
along with russia the cat
we don't like russia the cat