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[yuuago]

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[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

hey Yuu Yuu hey

is everything okay with your email?

[yuuago]

I think so?

Why do you ask?

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

did you send me anything? idk, I already copypasted it for you on AIM

[yuuago]

Okay, I just got on and saw....

I don't know what's going on sob

that's really weird orz

I don't think I was hacked, but... wut....

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

maybe try asking around if anyone got it too? ;3;

I hope you weren't also ;o;

[yuuago]

Yeah, I think I will. Because this is not cool. 8|||||| rrrgh


Anyway, Tik-tak, how're you o3o

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

I'm hanging around on the meme for the first time in pfffffffffffff and GOD I MISSED IT OKAY Sobbbbbbbb

also, I was at the Presidential Palace again today, only with my mom and brother. My sister was there later and she says that all that TV can be a little annoying since every time she tried to light a candle some guy was literally pointing a camera at her face :|

/BITCH

[yuuago]

Oh yeah, I saw you on there, heee o3o


Ah, I see? Bah, cameras in the face, that sounds so frustrating. :| Rrrrrg


I'm going to be writing you a letter soon, eee. Now that I'm done with my work a bit.

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

o3o

O3O

idk...


How're YOU, darling? And you should get some rest first. Definitely!

[yuuago]

（ ・ J ・) <3

Well I just passed in my final essay for class. It was almost a week late and the quality is not good, but... it's done, and I'm relieved. And now there is just the exam tomorrow. I feel kind of inadequate, but compared to how I was at this point last year, I'm doing okay.


I'll be going to bed very early tonight, don't worry <3

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

god why this is so cute seriously ("^J^)

I hope this exam isn't too hard or anything?

I'm glad you're getting okay/better? It's really wonderful to hear. And if you have exam tomorrow sleep ealry is a MUST ;3;

[yuuago]

Is cute because is Russia. Simple. （ ^ J ^)

Hmmm I don't know... I skipped last class when we discussed the exam, because I was sick and writing essays orz but tonight I'm going to look up what it will contain... I think it will be fine. I know the material. I'm not nervous, I just need to review it a little. I love this class so everything is easy to remember.

Yes yes, I'm going to go to bed around 8 PM tonight I think. Lots of rest. 'n then I'll get up early so I'll be fully awake for the exam! Fool-proof plan. ♪ ♫ ♪ ＼（＾ J ＾ ）ノ

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

it's so cool not being nervous.. I think it's like half of the success already! So just stick to the plan <33

and speaking of sleep, I think I need it. I'm tired and sleepy and quite cold, burying myself in my bed sounds so nice.

I wish you good luck tomorrow, DON'T THANK ME, and come back to tell me how very well it went! <333

Night now! (✿◡J◡.)

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

oh and btw how did your exam go?

[yuuago]

You're scared, and I'm annoyed. Well, it seems to be sending stuff to anyone in my address book, so I deleted that and hopefully it won't do it again 8|

Also the exam went fine, and I think I did okay. But my professor approached me afterward and said that because I handed my essay in late (not the exam, the assignment) I have to provide documentation showing I was sick (that was the reason I delayed). But I don't have documentation so I don't know what to do orz

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

aww, this sucks :|

And have you seen any doctor while you were sick? If you did maybe you could ask him to write something for you now.

[yuuago]

Yes. :|

Well, I did go... though he was like "yeah you just have a cold, I won't do anything for you" durr. Though my prof said I don't need a detailed record so maybe if I just get a note saying that I went that will be fine. orz I HATE BEING SICK normally I don't get sick, and then I do right before an important essay, arrrgh

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

It's still better than getting sick all the time... orz I think a note will be enough! '3'

<3

[yuuago]

I HOPE SO. So I'm going to go in tomorrow and get that. Because. I could do it now but I'm so tired orzzz I just want to rest.

[/falls asleep on you]

[/only not really]

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

Go rest, darling ;3;

/holds up and then tucks in

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

Yuu

You'll love me no matter what right

orz

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

also, something different - I'm still being spammed by your mail...



Hi!
How are you doing these days?
I bought one white 3GS Apple Iphone on the online shop.It is a very happy online shopping trip. The delivery is fast and the goods are perfect.
You can learn more about it here http://cncn.legolay.com
Have a nice time there, it is worthy of being visited!


Now at least spelling is better...?

[yuuago]

Of course I love you!

I might print off your comment so I can read it properly. orz IT'S WAY MORE THAN I EXPECTED. YOU'RE WONDERFUL.

and also I'm sorry my e-mail is spamming you but I don't know what to do about it sob o3o

[yuuago]

Btw.

I find it kind of amusing that the comment you wrote to me is much longer than the fic itself (by a whole page!)

Oh Tik, oh Tik, I love you so much fffff

(And I haven't read the whole thing over yet - I will do that tonight over coffee and think about it, and then get back to you)

[yuuago]

SIGH

[yuuago]

What is this, I don't even

[yuuago]

I feel sick. Both physically and mentally. It's very frustrating.

Been trying to put on a happy face but it isn't working all that well. Last only an hour or so... I feel listless.

Mum keeps calling and I don't want to talk to her.

School is hanging over my head and I just can't take it.

I want to go home but I can't go home right now.

I might not be able to pay rent in June. Might need to use the money I was saving up to visit Minako. ... at least I ain't bought the tickets yet. But it still hurts. I want to see her.

And I'm so lonely right now, too.

Ugh, hell. Maybe I should just go for a walk or something.

[yuuago]

I TRIED SO HARD
AND GOT SO FAR
BUT IN THE END
IT DOESN'T EVEN MATTER

fucking hell.

[yuuago]

THIS DAY. I just. This day. I don't even know. Maybe it's the rain. Maybe that's it. Or maybe it isn't. Either way, this day is fail, just like the day before it.

I'm not sure what to do. Maybe what I should do is try to pick up tonight, then start again - tomorrow - early.

But I don't know what to tell mum, I don't want her to get angry, but I don't want to talk to her. Argh. I just. I don't know what to do.

Maybe I'll just say that I need some more time.

Why am I panicking so much now? Is it because of the phone call, or because of school stuff?

I feel sick. I should go for a walk. A long one. And I don't know what to have for supper. I'm not hungry. Well, maybe after my walk. And it'll be a long one.

I'm sick of having no money and not being able to do anything and I'm sick of being sick and I'm sick of being mentally ill and I'm sick of anxiety and I'm sick of depression and I'm just sick of everything.

Why can't I be normal? I just want to be normal and fully-functioning.

[yuuago]

Anxiety levels THROUGH THE ROOF.

Don't want to talk to my mum.

Can barely function.

What to do, what to do.

[yuuago]

Oh gods damn why can't anything ever right. Why can't I just have a good day, and have things go right, at least for a while.

Fuckin' crying in the cafe, this is so damn embarrassing. I'll pretend it's allergies. It's that season, isn't it? Yeah. Just allergies, man. Put on a happy face, it's okay.

Fuck, I want to go home.

[yuuago]

Don't feel right. Ah man, what's wrong with me?

It must be the rain. It's raining out again and whenever it rains I just feel so down.

Well. Need to take my sunshine pills. 'n then get cracking. It's not such a big deal, is it? Life is life.

------

What the fuck is wrong with me. Why can't I -- Ugh, why do I feel so sick.

I want a hug and I miss my mom and I wish this was all done. I hate everything.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

and then norway was like "suck my penis"

ad sweden didn't really sa anythin becase h's sweden


it was hot th en

[noonish.livejournal.com]

also those aren't typos, my keyboard was lagging on me

[noonish.livejournal.com]

actually it just looks like Sweden wrote this now



rofl Sweden misses Norway so much he writes his own fanfiction

[yuuago]

..... I approve of this thought.

Little does he know that Norway writes his too.

Maybe slightly influenced by all those trashy romance novels.

Except somewhat better written - one would hope.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

[insert a shoop here of sweden's head on fabio]

[yuuago]

Oh yeah. Totally hot.

Jesus fucking christ, Noon, I love you. I just.

You make me laugh like an idiot.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

hdu laugh this is real artⓒ

http://community.livejournal.com/hetalia/7079541.html

[(Anonymous)]

Re: http://community.livejournal.com/hetalia/7079541.html

[yuuago]

I am intrigued.

... and will probably be preordering. Fff, what am I getting myself into....

because for some reason I'm too shy to comment on your actual journal orz

[(Anonymous)]

I just wanted to say that I'm really sorry your plans for the summer didn't work out. ): I know you were really looking forward to it; I really hope everything works out so that you'll be able to go next year.


_{A-also take care of yourself okay? ;3;}

Oh, anon <3

[yuuago]

Aw, you're so sweet. <3 Well, it's just how life goes.
I'm pretty sure I'll be able to go next year, and it's probably better in the long run, anyway. So, there we go. <3

I'll do my best! o3o <3

Thank you!

[(Anonymous)]

My anniversary thread on the meme is too old to bother replying to at this point, but I wanted to thank you for those recs. I quite enjoyed all three.

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

I'm watching a scary show and I'm alone in the house.





YUUU.....Q_Q

[yuuago]

[/HOLDS FOREVER]

Well, at least it's the daytime?

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

Yes...

Not that I'm scared or anything....

[yuuago]

Of course not!

[/EMBRACES]

[invisicanuck.livejournal.com]

/EMBRACES FOREVER

/IN A MANLY WAY

[noonish.livejournal.com]

http://aphanon-meme.livejournal.com/4718.html?thread=35161966#t35161966


somehow your reply is hilarious

New Schedule

[yuuago]

✿ 1-5: Schoolwork
✿ 5: Walk home
✿ 5:30: Supper
✿ 7: More schoolwork
✿ 10:30: Relax
✿ 12:30: Sleep

Urgh, we'll try this out and see how it goes. *facedesk* Man, getting things done sure is hard when you don't have to be at school.
----
[May 16th 2:15 PM]
So frustrated, arrrrgh argh argh. Getting all this done is harder than I thought. I keep thinking I can do it, but then it's like, what. I can't do it. SO FRUSTRATING. But I want to have it done by tomorrow.... rrrrgh

Re: New Schedule

[yuuago]

Arrrrrrrrrgh

Re: New Schedule

[yuuago]

I am just. Really. Really depressed. I'm depressed and I'm in physical pain and I'm lonely and I miss my mom. I hate this.

I wish I didn't exist.

Fucking

[yuuago]

I am just so fucking depressed, argh.
WHY CAN'T I HANDLE ANYTHING
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME
WHY CAN'T I JUST FUNCTION LIKE A NORMAL PERSON
WHY AM I DEPRESSED ALL THE TIME
WHY AM I ANXIOUS ALL THE TIME

I wish I could just take a pill and everything would be fine again. But the pills fucked me up so much and I don't want to go through that any more.

Fuck, crying in the library, good going me.

:|

[yuuago]

I feel sick, and I wish I didn't exist.
So depressed and angry with myself and everything.
Wish I could just, you know, not exist.
Go back somehow and make things change so I wouldn't exist. That would be nice. And then I'd just disappear, right? And I wouldn't have ever existed. That might change a few things in the world, but nothing significant, so it's okay.

Mostly I just wish things were different.

[yuuago]

TOMA

I think you're a sweetie pie.

What prompted this?

[yuuago]

WELL THAT'S FINE WITH ME

I'm actually rather glad to hear it. Argh, I've been so down lately.

[yuuago]

For some reason the fact that you use your Liet icon for this makes it really cute. I DON'T KNOW WHY. Lit lifting up a sulking Poland, buhyoo

I don't even know. (I need sleep)

[(Anonymous)]

yuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

i'm a sloth

Meet the sloths (http://vimeo.com/11712103) from Amphibian Avenger (http://vimeo.com/user2714304) on Vimeo (http://vimeo.com).

also, how are you, I haven't talk to you for agessss. I hope you're getting more sunshine and less snow now!
this is chai, idk why I'm posting anon but I clicked the button already anyway, just woke up from a nap after sitting for an exam this morning, my brain feels buzzed

[yuuago]

A sloth? Are you really, my dear.

We've been getting more sunshine - but unfortunately, maybe too much! It's been far too hot for me. I just can't win. orz

Things have still been kind of shit lately, but I'm trying to get my act together.

[(Anonymous)]

are you saying I'm not cute enough to be one? :< I want to be fed regularly and spent the whole day cuddling my cuddly toy.

No you can't! :D Summer's coming (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ'✿,｡･:*:❀･ﾟ'❁゜ﾟ*☆*ﾟ ゜ﾟ*:❀･ﾟ'♫♪･･:*❁゜'*☆ all the annoying insects are creeping back.

How long more do you have before you finish school?

[yuuago]

Of course you're cute enough to be one! But you're hardly as slow as one.

aslkdf I don't want summer to come. Summer means HEAT and I can't handre it. I don't mind the bugs so much... except spiders, yuck.

I don't know when I'll be finished school. August, I guess. Sigh. But I have some stuff due for May, and getting it done is like pulling teeth. Hard to make myself even think. Guess I'm just not very motivated.

[(Anonymous)]

Nowadays I feel like my brain moves as slow as one o3o

I want summer to come because summer means NO MORE EXAMS and freedom to laze my days awayyyy although it also means exam results time and family coming over here time and packing everything ever into boxes time.

Wow, August seems quite late. I'm not feeling very motivated either and I'm wondering if I really want to do a masters course and go through this another year. But then again, I always prefer being a student to working so idk. I CAN'T MAKE DECISIONS щ(ಥДಥщ)

Even if it's like pulling teeth, it's going to be worth it once it's all done! Hang in there (* '◡')ノ⌒*✿*

[yuuago]

OIC. Well then maybe I'm a sloth too. o3o

Well that's a good reason to want summer to come. <3 I hope the whole family stuff won't be too stressful!

Yeah, idk. *rolls around* I guess you'll just... have to figure it out. It's not for everyone, but if you do want to do it, maybe you should....

Sigh.

[vocarosia.livejournal.com]

http://community.livejournal.com/pandanparfait/13068.html#cutid1

BUHYOOO!

YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU

[noonish.livejournal.com]

http://pics.livejournal.com/melcratch/pic/00002z21/

Re: YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU

[yuuago]

This from the new volume? I never really cared before but ngl I kind of want it now orz

Re: YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU

[noonish.livejournal.com]

YES


And supposedly this isn't all.
This is from the artbook that came with the volume.

Re: YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU

[yuuago]

alskdfj sob

Well, buggeritall. I'm sorely tempted. Oh, well. I'll have to live without it. ;p

Re: YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU

[noonish.livejournal.com]

Sob it's only 1200 yen, with shipping probably like 30ish bucks, IF I HAD A JOB... ;A;

Re: YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU YUU

[yuuago]

Yeah, shipping is always killer, orz.

If I had a job... and stuff... buh. SIGH. And sob.

[yuuago]

[yuuago]

Sigh.

[yuuago]

I really kind of hate myself right now. Ugh, I keep trying and trying and nothing seems to get any better.

And now my netbook is being a piece of shit and MSWorks keeps shutting down and I can't even work on my essay until I fix that.

And I want to talk to mum, but she'll ask about school, and I just -- I can't.

And my self-esteem is so low right now, I just... oh gods if I phoned her and she started going on I don't know if I'd be able to take it.

I wish I could just fix myself, fuck.

http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=10769062

[noonish.livejournal.com]

buhyooooooooooo

Re: http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=10769062

[yuuago]

Pfffft

So cute

"Bugger off, I'm too hung over for this."

[(Anonymous)]

sigh, yuu


sigh.

[yuuago]

What's up, anon?

[(Anonymous)]

Nothin, really. How've you been?

[yuuago]

Not good, not even remotely. But today went pretty okay. Though who knows how tomorrow will be. orz

[noonish.livejournal.com]

Yuu I'm really nervous.

[yuuago]

First, breathe.

Second, what's eating you?

[noonish.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid I'm gonna really upset her or something because I screwed up and I can't believe how badly I screwed up and I just feel really awful.


Why do I even say stuff.

[yuuago]

I dunno, man.

She's pretty chill; I think it'll be fine. Just relax (gonna' be okay).

Key thing is, if you say something that does upset her, just... apologize, man. And mean it. 's all.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

I already did several times but I always screw up and then apologize, I do it so much it's almost like why do I bother anymore.

Also you and I and everyone have almost been friends over a year already; I don't understand how that happened at all.

[yuuago]

Well, I dunno. Just do your best not to screw up. Doesn't guarantee you won't, mind, but it's a start.

As for how that happened - it's magic, bb. 8) ~Magic~

[noonish.livejournal.com]

sob It always goes so well and then one thing sets me off and I do a bunch of stupid, hurtful things I can't take back. I don't know why she still ever talks to me.

Time goes so fast, I don't understand it. Last summer I never imagined "next summer" would actually exist. It scares me.

[yuuago]

Well, if she still talks to you, I'd say it's because she does value you as a friend. So... that's something to keep in mind!

Yep, time goes fast. You get used to it eventually.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

I know she does, she always tells me it but I just find it so hard to believe because, I mean...look at me. I'm a mess. I dunno. Maybe I'm not used to that sort of thing. I don't know how anyone puts up with me at all.

Yeah, I guess I'm just not used to thinking about the future and then actually having it be possible.

[yuuago]

Eh, well, it's just... what ya' do, you know? Just because someone's going through a bad spell isn't any reason to drop them, unless they weren't close in the first place.

Time just goes faster as one gets older.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

I guess...I dunno like I said I'm just not used to it. I'm so selfish.


I never realized it before because I'm not an adult at all.

[yuuago]

Eh, well. You better get used to it, bro. :V

Wellll guess that's true, but I dunno'. I didn't realize just how fast everything goes until a couple years ago. It just kind of creeps up on ya'.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

Is that a threat you're gonna stick on me?




I made you a present.

Naw, 'cause when I hear about something being X years away I always whine about it's too long and I'll be old by then and there's not enough time. 'S kiddish stuff. But yeah I can't get over a year already...

[yuuago]

YES IT'S A THREAT and also you are a very silly individual.

I shall treasure forever :V


oic. WELL you better get used to time passing because time... passes... er.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

YOU KNEW THAT WHEN YOU MARRIED ME i mean MOI MOI

good. i worked v. v. hard on it. just like you should see what chi's spampost looks like...when she left it was on page 21...we're on page 25 now...


Yes lol. I just haven't adjusted yet.
But going to church this morning made me want to feel clean. I wanna get rid of all this ugly stuff.

[yuuago]

WAIT WHAT since when am I married to you


Alsoo, you are a champion spammer, but you knew that


SO YOU WANT TO FEEL CLEAN, EH. Well Yuu is here with instructions.

First, get some soap.... :V

[noonish.livejournal.com]

since birth on the astral plane duh


born and raised with 100% lulz



what kind of lush soap do you recommend, oh terribly flaming homosexual one?

[yuuago]

Oh of course, how could I ever forget.


Also

re: soap

For stuff in-store (as opposed to website-only) I would say best bet is Alkmaar or Ice Blue ----
wait is this a serious question or not

[noonish.livejournal.com]

you're so wonderfully gay it's like you shoot rainbows from your ears

but haha yeah i just kinda want to be...better. cleaner soul. feel things without worrying about why or feeling like i want to cut my heart out because i don't want to feel.

i was doing ok for a while last week, so i wanna do better again...

[yuuago]

sob. I am a dumb.


WELL. Knowing what you want is a good start. Unfortunately I have no idea how to achieve that. :V ... Though I imagine keeping a positive state of mind helps! Or at least attempting.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

That's my line.


Yeah I don't think I've had a state of mind like that in a while, but it'd probably help if
I could learn how...

[yuuago]

It might be your line, but I'm borrowing it.


Usually I manage by reminding myself that it's not the end of the world and nobody cares as much about or judges me as hard about (x) as I do myself.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

dick.


yeah my therapist told me i'm like 4x harder on myself than i am on anyone else
ffff i should probably stop being such a douchebag and actually listen to her

[yuuago]

Yep.


I think EVERYONE is much harder on themselves.
Listening might, er, help.

http://community.livejournal.com/ohnotheydidnt/47342277.html

[noonish.livejournal.com]

I thought you might like this.

[noonish.livejournal.com]

http://community.livejournal.com/hetalia/7411673.html#cutid1



UHYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[yuuago]

Well, I'd say it as "eh-lof", but that's probably wrong.

[yuuago]

More like "off"

But as I said before, the way I say it is probably wrong.

[(Anonymous)]

hey, yuu


hey

[yuuago]

Hey, anon.

Hey.

What's up?

[(Anonymous)]

nothing at all, i just felt like saying hey


but how are you?

[yuuago]

I'm all right. Working on some colouring. I did some portrait sketches today and figured I'd be able to use some of them for my roleplay accounts. :V It's tedious, 'cause I'm not very good at computer colouring.

[(Anonymous)]

i miss making icons, it's been awhile since i bothered


why don't you think you're good? there's nothing to it once you do it enough

[yuuago]

Well, okay, it isn't that difficult... but the thing is, I just get so frustrated, because it's difficult with my mouse, and it takes forever. I could do a better job in a much shorter amount of time if I did it by hand, but stuff done with coloured pencils doesn't look good on the computer.

So I'm just like, grrrrrrrr. Frustrated! 8D

[(Anonymous)]

why's it taking so long? how are you doing it? :V

[yuuago]

Well, reason it's taking so long is probably because I'm using a mouse. But, well, I don't know. I do it in a way equivalent to what I do with my pencils - layer for each part, put down a flat colour to start with, then paint over it with various other colours (paintbrush at 60% hardness and 20% opacity). I try for depth and crispness.

Then in the end you can hardly see all this detail anyway, because it gets resized so small, haa. xD Oh, well. But I just finished one, so I'm finished with colouring for the night -

http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=10955357

[vocarosia.livejournal.com]

I came

Re: http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=10955357

[vocarosia.livejournal.com]

OH SNAP I TOTALLY DID NOT EXPECT THAT LOLL

UUUHHHH page claimed for sniper!finland in all his sexy glory???

/runs

Re: http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=10955357

[yuuago]

Pfff a friend and I were flailing about this picture last night.

And now I'm just going to sit here and stare at it a while some more, if'n you don't mind.

Huffffff sniperFinland. Good gods.

Re: http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=medium&illust_id=10955357

[vocarosia.livejournal.com]

OH I SEE well now it will be on the top of your page forever and ever amen♥

[vocarosia.livejournal.com]

aww yeah all this page just for voca

/sleeps on it

[yuuago]

Also, Voca, you are very silly.

[vocarosia.livejournal.com]

but i have cute finland icons so it's okay o3o

[yuuago]

It's more than okay, it's fabulous. Eeeee Finland, so squeezable~