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[yuuago]

I feel kind of sad.

It's just, I was making an actual attempt at getting out to do things and having a life. I was trying to meet people and make friends like a normal person.

I went to one writing club session, and everyone was very nice. But I'm pretty sure it's all cancelled for the foreseeable future. And the poetry reading I was going to go to is cancelled. And the Pride YMM coffee meetup is of course cancelled too.

I was trying really, really hard, and determined to go to all of these things and talk to people and make local connections, and now... ugh.

One positive spin on it is: at least the reason I'm not going is not because my anxiety got the better of me and I couldn't bring myself to go. These are very unusual circumstances, and it's not just that I can't go; nobody can go.

Still. Feels bad, man.

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[(Anonymous)]

Meh yeah, sucks when one finally decides to go out there and fix a thing, but something just /happens/. And with anxiety and depression one is just always a little uncertain if one wants to try again in the future. Feels like a lost opportunity in a sense even though it realistically isn't that bad.

[yuuago]

Pretty much. :/

Oh well!!