Fffffffffffu
May. 8th, 2017 08:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yuuagoI really wish my brain would stop going haywire every time I get even the slightest urge to talk to somebody I don't know.
Especially when it's ON THE INTERNET and it's someone I'm PAYING TO DO THINGS.
Crap goddamnit sonova --
Anxiety sucks so much.
[edit]
Actually, you know what. This is STUPID.
And because it's stupid, I'm going to DO THE THING.
(And since I've just said it, that means I have to do it. Yes. Hello, accountability!)
...But damn, is it ever stupid.
[Edit II: Electric Boogaloo]
I did the thing.
I sound like a stupid airhead every time I open my metaphorical mouth, but it doesn't matter. I DID THE THING.
...You know, it utterly amazes me that I've come across people who think that I'm cool and collected, considering THIS (that is, the above) is frequently how I feel about, like, lots of things.
"I'm too nervous to talk to this person! They'll think I'm stupid/annoying/obnoxious/clueless/an utter cabbagehead!"
[/opens tab to comment anyway]
[/types comment]
[/deletes everything]
[/closes tab]
[/repeats 10 times]
...But at least I DID THE THING this time. At least there is that.
Especially when it's ON THE INTERNET and it's someone I'm PAYING TO DO THINGS.
Crap goddamnit sonova --
Anxiety sucks so much.
[edit]
Actually, you know what. This is STUPID.
And because it's stupid, I'm going to DO THE THING.
(And since I've just said it, that means I have to do it. Yes. Hello, accountability!)
...But damn, is it ever stupid.
[Edit II: Electric Boogaloo]
I did the thing.
I sound like a stupid airhead every time I open my metaphorical mouth, but it doesn't matter. I DID THE THING.
...You know, it utterly amazes me that I've come across people who think that I'm cool and collected, considering THIS (that is, the above) is frequently how I feel about, like, lots of things.
"I'm too nervous to talk to this person! They'll think I'm stupid/annoying/obnoxious/clueless/an utter cabbagehead!"
[/opens tab to comment anyway]
[/types comment]
[/deletes everything]
[/closes tab]
[/repeats 10 times]
...But at least I DID THE THING this time. At least there is that.
Yuu. Fic writer & book lover. M/Canada.
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Date: 2017-05-09 06:48 pm (UTC)I used to have that. I fight it by deliberately letting myself be inappropriate or too honest at times, just so people never build high expectations about me. It also weeds out some possibly nice but overly sensitive people. I don't know how I feel about that, I probably wouldn't be good for them anyway *shrug*
LK
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Date: 2017-05-09 06:54 pm (UTC)