Fffffffffffu

[yuuago]

I really wish my brain would stop going haywire every time I get even the slightest urge to talk to somebody I don't know.



Especially when it's ON THE INTERNET and it's someone I'm PAYING TO DO THINGS.

Crap goddamnit sonova --

Anxiety sucks so much.

[edit]

Actually, you know what. This is STUPID.

And because it's stupid, I'm going to DO THE THING.

(And since I've just said it, that means I have to do it. Yes. Hello, accountability!)

...But damn, is it ever stupid.

[Edit II: Electric Boogaloo]

I did the thing.

I sound like a stupid airhead every time I open my metaphorical mouth, but it doesn't matter. I DID THE THING.

...You know, it utterly amazes me that I've come across people who think that I'm cool and collected, considering THIS (that is, the above) is frequently how I feel about, like, lots of things.

"I'm too nervous to talk to this person! They'll think I'm stupid/annoying/obnoxious/clueless/an utter cabbagehead!"
[/opens tab to comment anyway]
[/types comment]
[/deletes everything]
[/closes tab]
[/repeats 10 times]

...But at least I DID THE THING this time. At least there is that.

Comments

[greatandgrey]

*HUGS* I understand how you feel. I panic even thinking about calling or contacting people I've known for a while because of reasons, and I just assume I'll be bothering them and any interruption from me would be annoying them (so I just keep my mouth shut XD ) I can only ever contact exchange mods privately, seldom in the exchange communities because, again, just can't do it. This type of anxiety just sucks. But you're no airhead! :) Your moments of anxiety does not define you.

[yuuago]

[/hugs!!]

Haa, glad that someone knows where I'm coming from. IT'S THE MOST RIDICULOUS THING. I even get nervous like this when I'm talking to my friends! Which is just plain stupid, because they're... my friends....

And like. Even if I did sound kind of dim, coming off like that isn't the end of the world. :D

[greatandgrey]

Aw, it is! :) And I know that feeling too, about friends (and family too. Sigh.) There's a constant nagging feeling that I'm just bothering everyone who don't really care so I stop trying after a while. XD

Even if I did sound kind of dim, coming off like that isn't the end of the world. :D
That's what kicks me into gear at work, I think. When I see people who need help but are struggling with communication, I sympathize so much with that that I become super patient. I'm mostly trying to get to the heart of the issue, find out what they need, etc. If they say things wrong or obviously seem flustered or nervous, I just filter all that out and focus on "What does this person need from me?" Maybe others are like that too? :D (and if they're not and make fun of us, then it's their problem, not ours, hee! We're only human! :) )