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[yuuago]

I feel social, but I don't feel social. I want to talk to people, but I don't want to talk to anyone. I know that I have friends, but I feel like I don't have friends. I want to do things, but I don't want to do things. I'm in an okay mood, but I'm angry at everything.

I wish this mood would just go away. Holy shit, it makes me want to bang my head against a wall.

I would talk about it more, but it's just whining basically. And there's not much I can do about it aside from let it run its course, I guess. These moods come, but eventually they do go.


Okay, let's think of the positive. In the last few days, I-
-Finished a good novel (Jo Nesbø's The Leopard), and started reading the book on the Napoleonic Wars that I bought a while back.
-I tried a few new things with makeup (just basic things, but I'd never done them before) and it turned out well. I'm rather pleased with myself.
-Did a whole lot of knitting. Sure, it's just charity bandages - I don't have the attention span for anything else right now - but it's something, isn't it. And I haven't been having any issues with my hands! They tend to get a bit stiff if I knit too much, but so far, no problems. It's a great sign.
-Studied a ton, and actually managed to retain some of it. Er. I think. I'll get the hang of Norwegian eventually, I swear. (Just don't ask me to speak it. My pronunciation is so bad.)
-And... I will admit. When I went to the bank the other day and saw how much I had in my account after only a few weeks of working at my new job, it felt pretty good. It's like I'm finally turning my life around. It's wonderful.

I'll try to finish updating the indexes tonight. If this "Grrrr, I don't want to talk to anyone" mood persists, it's very likely I'll manage it.

Comments

[chinomi.livejournal.com]

THAT WHINE AND CHEESE i know that whine and cheese well. I've been through it before- IT'LL GO AWAY I PROMISE /hugs

Man I... Still don't have the hang of Swedish. IT'S A DIFFICULT LANGUAGE TO LEARN. Japanese has been way easier so far I JUST DON'T EVEN KNOW.

[yuuago]

I"M GLAD I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS TASTED THIS WHINE AND CHEESE sob. That does make me feel a little better, at least.

Regarding Swedish... you know, maybe you just aren't a Svenska kind've gal. Kind've like how French and me just don't mesh, even though I studied it for like a zillion years. Have you tried learning any other Scandinavian (or Germanic) languages before? :Va

[chinomi.livejournal.com]

THE FACT THAT I MAY NOT BE A SVENSKA KIND OF GAL SADDENS ME ;___; i love learning it and i love my prof and i love my class but nothing is sticking WHY...

also no i haven't :'D I'M ACTUALLY... very new to this whole LANGUAGE LEARNING business.

[yuuago]

I DUNNO. ALAS. :Va Maybe trying a different approach would help? But I don't know what approaches you're currently taking to it. I mean like, are you doing a lot of writing, or a lot of reading, lots of audio or not very much, and what kind of texts are you reading... and is vocabulary or lack therof an issue etc etc etc :Va

And I SEE. Well... sometimes it's just a matter of banging your head against it until something sticks. (But if you'd tried something related, and found that didn't stick either, it would be easier to tell if it's the language-group that doesn't work for you, or not).

[chinomi.livejournal.com]

I'm good with listening and understanding.
D...ecent with reading and understanding.

BUT TELL ME TO PUT SENTENCES TOGETHER MYSELF? N O P E. Horrible. Whenever I speak to the rest of my class my sentences always seem so broken. But the problem I have academically are definitely the tests. I can barely understand what the test asks me and then I don't know how to formulate the sentence at all; especially in past tense. Blugh :(a;

[yuuago]

Oh lawd. I know that feeling.

Hmmm. :|a Do you have old quizzes and stuff available to you? I mean, do you save the ones that you've done, I mean. Because going over the instructions word-by-word in order to understand them... might help in understanding future ones?

Unfortunately I think the only thing that will help with the putting things together is more practice doing that outside of assignments. :|a Like with lang-8 or something... idk.
[/trying to be helpful but probably isn't, sorry]

[cher-arlequin.livejournal.com]

That whine and cheese of yours has been my life for the past two months, so...I know how you feel.

[yuuago]

Kurooooo ;3;
I'm glad people understand... even if it's a really sucky feeling and I wish nobody else had to deal with it.
[/squeeze]
Er, aside from that... how are you? It's been a while.

[cher-arlequin.livejournal.com]

It really has been a while, hasn't it? I haven't completely abandoned LJ; I still check my friends list every day, though I clearly don't comment as much as I used to. I've been alright, though, settling into college and all that.