Possibilities... maybe.

[yuuago]

So. It was decided that after my trip in early autumn, some changes might be in order.

One of my relations brought up the possibility of working with the government. It's a definite possibility. However, in order to do it, I'd have to move, probably to Edmonton. Pretty scary stuff considering I haven't exactly had much success with work in the last year or so. But, I will be looking into it.

On the one hand, the idea of moving makes me feel very unsure, because, well, what if it doesn't work out. I'll be screwed. And since I don't have much cash at the moment for rent and things, I would have to borrow from my parents in order to get started out (of course, I would pay them back after, but -- still.)

On the other hand, even if it might be difficult at first... goddamn, I need to get out of here. I am not happy in this house, and I am not happy in this city, and maybe a move would help improve my peace of mind. At the very least, since I wouldn't be around my mum all the time, I wouldn't have to always hear her saying stuff to bring me down. And if I move to Edmonton, well, chinomi will be living there too, so I won't be totally alone. That's a very comforting thought. She'll be busy with school, sure, but I'll have someone to spend time with occasionally, at least!

(And suddenly I am overcome with thoughts of study parties and nights out, haa. Sounds like fun!)

But, mph. This is still a bit of a ways off. I haven't even decided anything yet, and I still need to do a lot more thinking about it. So. First, the trip. Then, look more seriously at this.

I think one thing that I really need to consider is this: If I never take risks because I'm too damn scared of what might happen, then I'll probably never have any success with anything at all. Right?

Comments

[const-victoria.livejournal.com]

Oh, that sounds like a tough decision - the possibilities are tempting, buuut it's a big step. Good thing there's still time to consider it AND a trip to take your mind off things for a bit.

Man, it's goona be a busy autumn, though.

[yuuago]

Yeah, ngl, it's pretty scary. I'm leaning toward taking the opportunity, but I need to look into it a little bit more.

Basically, I'm not getting anywhere where I currently am, so it's starting to seem like I'm really going to need to leave if I'm going to have any success. (Which is kind of funny, considering my current location is where people are always saying one needs to go in order to make money! But there aren't any jobs suited to me here)

At least I have time to think about it. '3'

[chikotori.livejournal.com]

For what it's worth, it sounds like a very good idea to me. I think I'm getting restless after staying in one place for so long a year :'D But no, really, from your posts, it seems that a change of scenery would be good. And of course, having someone you already know in the same city is definitely a plus.

[yuuago]

Yeah, when you put it that way... The more I think about it, the more I really am leaning toward this.
I GOTTA' GET OUT OF HERE, CHAI. Sob.

[chikotori.livejournal.com]

WELL, IF YOU GET THE CHANCE TO, GRAB IT AND ~FLY LIKE THE WIND~
Actually, thinking about it, I'm less likely to try new stuff when I'm at home. Possibly because my parents are here. For obvious reasons, they'll want me to always choose the safer path and they're always at hand to disapprove when things go belly-up. On the other hand, if I'm not a home, I can choose when and what to report to them :D

[scrii.livejournal.com]

it definitely sounds like a good idea to me, it's great that you're looking into it - i imagine there'd be pretty decent career opportunities and finally getting out of your current living situation is a great plus. keep us updated on it, yeah? but in the meantime i'm excited that you're going to sweden & other nearby countries, i hope you have a really great time there. :)

[yuuago]

Yes! [/clings to] If I get any new information, I'll write it down. Will definitely be looking into this... because man, I need to get out of here. Don't get me wrong, there are plenty of career opportunities where I am - tons! - but... uh. Not for someone with my particular skills. xD Now, if I wanted to work in the oil industry, on the other hand... but, I don't.

And yesss re: Sweden, I'm sure it'll be wonderful. I can hardly believe that I'll actually be going, ahhhh.