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yuuagoI think I'm getting sick. :| By all the gods, I hope not. I don't need this right now. We had a windchill of -20C yesterday, and then the same today, and like a fool I went out without dressing properly. I was taking the bus, not walking, but... still. Argh! When will spring come for real?
I'm so exhausted today. I think it's because I didn't get a lot of sleep last night, and I had to get up early today so that I could go to a doctor's appointment. They were checking out the problem nerve to see what's wrong with it...Basically what they did was use wires to attach my fingers to a computer, and then used a stylus to give me shocks in various places. What did we deduce? The problem is in my elbow, not my wrist, and it's probably a result of my posture, which is absolute shit - I'm always leaning on it; no surprise that the nerve might get crushed. So, there we go. Mind, the doc did say I should get some bloodwork done just to be double-sure (said it could be a number of other problems) and I guess I will do that... eventually. But for the moment, I'm pretty confident that we've found the problem.
Now that I know the likely problem, I can work on fixing it. It seems now that writing isn't a problem per se; it's other factors. I'm guessing that as long as I pay careful attention to how I sit, I can probably start writing again soon. This thought makes me so incredibly happy. I don't want to get too hopeful yet, because it's just an "if", but still... I've just been so depressed because I haven't been able to do it, and even the merest possibility is wonderful.
Anyway. Couple days ago I ran into my prof, and we discussed meeting up to talk about school-related things. Aside from being a boot to the head (and I really needed it), I... think that would be good for me, not just because it would help to be able to talk about school, but also because I need some contact. I've been such a solitary person, and without the weekly physio appointments, I won't be getting out much any more. I can't help but feel awfully lame about all that, but it is how it is, and I guess I'll do anything to get out of the house. Really don't want to go and become a recluse again.
On a completely unrelated note, I've been overcome with the urge to read Kevin Major's Hold Fast recently. Unfortunately, it's not an easy one to find. I wish I hadn't left my copy of it behind in Nova Scotia, argh. Though now that I think of it, they might have it at McNally Robinson... might head down there tomorrow. I usually don't go there because they never have what I want for history books, and I can get dusty old literature for dirt cheap at the used book store, and comics are less expensive on Amazon... But who knows, maybe they'll have this.
I've been roleplaying more than usual lately, and it's putting me in the mood for writing. Now that, as previous mentioned, I think I've figured out what's going on - I might be able to write again soon. If so, I'll probably throw myself into it. I have so many ideas, especially for various Norway-centric things, because I've been playing him. Mostly Sweden/Norway stuff as usual, though I kind of want to write some other pairings too, and details aside I really want to get some of them out of my head. Mind, I still have other long things to work on, but that's beside the point. They'll get done.
To think, just the other day I was feeling really bummed when I realized that I had only written seven pages in 2010. My goal is to write 100 pages by the time the year is out. 50 pages of that should be about Estonia, the rest can be whatever. Can't remember exact numbers, but I'm pretty sure I managed that output last year, or at least close to it.
In an unusual turn of events, someone asked me for concrit on fic today. That's never happened before - I mean, Tik and others have asked me to do proofreading, but it isn't the same. In any case, that was quite an ego boost, and I had fun doing it. Kind of like when I had to go through my students' papers back when I was teaching - there's something about it that's just enjoyable for me. Maybe it's just because I like looking at things critically when I'm not being graded on how I do it. That's probably the thing.
I'm so exhausted today. I think it's because I didn't get a lot of sleep last night, and I had to get up early today so that I could go to a doctor's appointment. They were checking out the problem nerve to see what's wrong with it...Basically what they did was use wires to attach my fingers to a computer, and then used a stylus to give me shocks in various places. What did we deduce? The problem is in my elbow, not my wrist, and it's probably a result of my posture, which is absolute shit - I'm always leaning on it; no surprise that the nerve might get crushed. So, there we go. Mind, the doc did say I should get some bloodwork done just to be double-sure (said it could be a number of other problems) and I guess I will do that... eventually. But for the moment, I'm pretty confident that we've found the problem.
Now that I know the likely problem, I can work on fixing it. It seems now that writing isn't a problem per se; it's other factors. I'm guessing that as long as I pay careful attention to how I sit, I can probably start writing again soon. This thought makes me so incredibly happy. I don't want to get too hopeful yet, because it's just an "if", but still... I've just been so depressed because I haven't been able to do it, and even the merest possibility is wonderful.
Anyway. Couple days ago I ran into my prof, and we discussed meeting up to talk about school-related things. Aside from being a boot to the head (and I really needed it), I... think that would be good for me, not just because it would help to be able to talk about school, but also because I need some contact. I've been such a solitary person, and without the weekly physio appointments, I won't be getting out much any more. I can't help but feel awfully lame about all that, but it is how it is, and I guess I'll do anything to get out of the house. Really don't want to go and become a recluse again.
On a completely unrelated note, I've been overcome with the urge to read Kevin Major's Hold Fast recently. Unfortunately, it's not an easy one to find. I wish I hadn't left my copy of it behind in Nova Scotia, argh. Though now that I think of it, they might have it at McNally Robinson... might head down there tomorrow. I usually don't go there because they never have what I want for history books, and I can get dusty old literature for dirt cheap at the used book store, and comics are less expensive on Amazon... But who knows, maybe they'll have this.
I've been roleplaying more than usual lately, and it's putting me in the mood for writing. Now that, as previous mentioned, I think I've figured out what's going on - I might be able to write again soon. If so, I'll probably throw myself into it. I have so many ideas, especially for various Norway-centric things, because I've been playing him. Mostly Sweden/Norway stuff as usual, though I kind of want to write some other pairings too, and details aside I really want to get some of them out of my head. Mind, I still have other long things to work on, but that's beside the point. They'll get done.
To think, just the other day I was feeling really bummed when I realized that I had only written seven pages in 2010. My goal is to write 100 pages by the time the year is out. 50 pages of that should be about Estonia, the rest can be whatever. Can't remember exact numbers, but I'm pretty sure I managed that output last year, or at least close to it.
In an unusual turn of events, someone asked me for concrit on fic today. That's never happened before - I mean, Tik and others have asked me to do proofreading, but it isn't the same. In any case, that was quite an ego boost, and I had fun doing it. Kind of like when I had to go through my students' papers back when I was teaching - there's something about it that's just enjoyable for me. Maybe it's just because I like looking at things critically when I'm not being graded on how I do it. That's probably the thing.
Yuu. Fic writer & book lover. M/Canada.
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