I know I'll just be right back

[yuuago]

Well. Past few days haven't been so good for various reasons. Going to try not to linger on it, but it's hard. Well, the important thing is to keep going, I guess. Keep on moving, taking things one day at a time. I've been trying to distract myself by putting the house in order. I went to get my teeth cleaned today, and then next week I'll be getting my wisdom teeth out. I doubt I'll be in any condition to do much after the extraction, so I'm going to be cleaning all week so that by the time the day rolls around the house will be spotless. It'll be one less thing to worry about while I'm waiting around to recover.

My wrist is still being a bitch. I did some writing in the past couple of days (nothing interesting, just notes and letters and stuff) and now everything's just awful again. Pain and stiff and horrible sensitivity to texture. Lovely. So now I'm typing with my wrist propped up on a plush bat, 'cause the physiotherapist said I should keep something soft underneath it when typing. Sigh. Is this ever awkward.

The air is starting to smell like spring. This morning when I woke up everything was fresh and foggy. White frost covered everything, made the trees white, but it was spring-frost, not autumn-frost. This is a good sign. I'm looking forward to it. It's been winter for too long. I need fresh grass and young leaves and flowers.

Sigh. Life has been so stagnant for me lately. What the heck'm I doin'?

Comments

[noonish.livejournal.com]

penis

[yuuago]

weenis

[noonish.livejournal.com]

there was a band in my hs called weenis

[noonish.livejournal.com]

also getting your wisdom teeth out? OOOO:

will they put you to sleep or not?

[yuuago]

Yes, I am. Might as well get 'em done now, as they need to come out eventually.

And they won't be sedating me, no. They said that because I don't have anyone to retrieve me afterward, they won't do it, even though I live literally right next to the office. :/

[noonish.livejournal.com]

Ahhhh well make sure they give you enough numbness though and everything. ;O; And make sure you have soup and puddings and stuff ok! ♥ /hugs

[yuuago]

Yeah, I'll be doublesure about that. x.x I stressed to them that I'm by myself, there's nobody here to look after me, so.... yeah. They said they'd give me some good drugs, too.

Gonna' stock up on soup and yogurt and mango-flavoured tofu, yessss

[felonytexas.livejournal.com]

Vitamin B-100 will help improve the circulation and alleviate some of the symptoms associated with carpoltunnel. I'm not sure what is wrong with your wrist but given you spend a high degree of time at the computer writing, that's my first assumption. And it does help. I take it for the reasons.

[yuuago]

I might start taking it anyway considering how much writing I do. But fortunately, it isn't carpoltunnel, it's some temporary nerve-squishing due to being an idiot who does homework for hours without breaks. Fffft.

[(Anonymous)]

Get thee out of the house and away from the computer. Put down the scrub brush, or whatever it is Yuu cleans with, and do things you don't usually do, even if they seem like little things.

Pretend you're someone else for a day and live as they would.

Take a walk through a part town you don't usually venture, and keep walking till you're too tired to go back and rest where you fall; stop at all the venues, walk down side roads and back alleys.

Smile and greet people you don't know and see if they smile back.

Talk to the sad-looking people at the bus stop and learn what makes them so sad and appreciate that that's not why you're sad.

Buy a stupid hat and then marvel at how you could have ever bought such a stupid hat. Then, like, wear it in public or leave it out on the street and see who takes it or something. Put it on a fire hydrant.

Laugh off silly mistakes and plan to make many more rather than wait and wonder why things sometimes happen differently than you expect.

Read Sylvia Plath? Idk, reading Sylvia Plath always makes me feel better. I mean, this Waverly stuff sounds pretty heavy and very not-conducive-to-Yuu-feeling-better to me. But that's just me.

Should you reply to this, forgive me for not replying right away. I suddenly got hungry while typing and need to cook something.

[yuuago]

Ehhhhhhhhhh.

Well, I went for a walk today? I mean I usually do, but I took a route that I usually only take in the summer. It's too icy when it's cold, but things are starting to thaw so it isn't so slippery. That was nice....

What the heck do "normal people" do for fun? Er, aside from things that I dislike. Derp derp.

Unfortunately I must turn down most of your suggestions as being not to my taste, however I might try reading something different (not Plath though - must say I'm definitely not a fan). Waverly is actually very exciting (it's all very fantastical and about war and highlanders who live like Robin Hood and stuff) but you're right, it's very heavy reading. They didn't exactly write things for easy reading in the early 1800s....

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

/cuddles

[yuuago]

/Snuggles

o3o

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

/wants to help

/wishes she could ;A;

[yuuago]

/Appreciates the thought

/So there

<3

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

/feels terrible anyway

so

idk

[yuuago]

Shhhh, you. None of that. <3

So. There. 8D

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

but you seem so saaaad

and I don't like it

[yuuago]

Oh, well. It's normal. So. 8D

I don't knoooow Tik-tak. But it's okay. I'm fiiiiine.

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

no it isn't

you do not always seem sad

I think

;3;

and are you suuuuuuuure?

[yuuago]

Wellll it is but usually I'm better about not talking about it, haa.

And yes, I'm sure. <3

No worries dear <3

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

...and are you sure that you are sure? Just asking

HOW CAN I NOT WORRY

[yuuago]

I'm sure that I'm sure!

And I DON'T KNOOOOOW

Oh, Tik. ilu. o3o

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

and are you sure that you're sure that you're sure? ;3;

I don't either

Oh Yuuuuu o///o ilu toooooo

[yuuago]

I'm..... sure! (And confused, hurrrr)


<3 Siiigh. I don't even know anything any more.

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

EVERYONE IS CONFUSED BY THIS POINT and you don't sound so sure anymore

I can tell you something and then you'll know... something?

[yuuago]

THIS IS TRUE and yeah I'm not

Maybe if you did

I'd know

SOMETHING

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

soooo you're not sure you are fine. I KNEW IT. You need something to get fine again. What do you need? ;3;

So I can tell you that I love you kiss or hug you cuz I'm bluffin with my muffin whatever that means

ooor I could tell you other things, but my things are so boring maybe you don't want to know

SOMETHING /BORING/

[yuuago]

Sob. Yes, you knew it. I don't know what I need... maybe just something resembling a life. IDK, this is something I need to sort out on my own.

What I do know is that you are wonderful <3

And also I'm tempted to spam you with letters just because I feel like it but I hardly have anything to say because my life is boring. And mail takes forever to get to you. Though I guess I could make an ~experiment~ of that and see exactly how long it takes, haha.

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

...maybe we have a very very similar problem. Too similar. Maybe it's even exactly the same. Sigh, idk.

how ca I be laksjdlkajdlkskdlslksdkdskldsaj


spam me with whatever you want and I am sure your life is less boring than mine at this point. I mean it, I so mean it I couldn't mean it more if I tried.

You could ;3;

[yuuago]

Hmmm-mm, this is possible. Lack of mental stimulation + not doing anything + depression? idk.

You just arrrreee you're a total sweetie pie.

Maybe I will spam you, then. <3 If I can think of something to say. I have all this letter-paper and international stamps, I might as well use them 8D

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

...hiii there, me. How's it going? it isn't ;A;

I WAS SUPPOSED TO CHEER YOU UP OR SOMETHING AND I CAN'T EVEN DO THAT

if you can use them using them is a good idea indeed ;^;

[yuuago]

Sob. And sigh. WELL. I guess the best thing we can do is like... try to pull ourselves up. *facedesk* La, it's so hard, but... well. One day at a time, right?

And ACTUALLY I do feel kind of better know. Talking to you is always wonderful. <3

Maybe I will write you things. Many things. And then you'll suddenly start receiving a letter every week or something. 8D Like I did with Minako.
I can be your ~secret Canadian sweetie~ or something pffffff

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

yup... haha, try, this is the word orz

then I should make sure to talk to you more? I could try to talk to you all the time but it'd be difficult. so maybe not.

but you're already my Canadian sweetie. I'm not sure about secret, but...

[yuuago]

Yes. But. EFFORT DOES COUNT FOR SOMETHING. So... Eh... yes. Here, have some ~Canadian optimism~!

Maybe. <3 Or maybe not. It's hard because I never have anything to say because I am boring. And because I still can't write because of this stupid injury not being healed yet. When I can write I have more to talk about.

Fine, I can be your not-secret Canadian sweetie. Such is life. 8D

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

you're not supposed to give me ~Canadaian optimism~ I was supposed to give you MY ~Polish optimism~! ;O; IT'S ALL NOT AS PLANNED orz

ohshiii I'm sorry for making you write so much right now god why am I not thinking so much /facedeskfacedeskfacedeskxinfinity

and you are never boring, you're one of the most interesting persons I know ;3;
you can be my one and only Canadian sweetie this sounds nice too ;3;

[yuuago]

WELL then we can trade optimism! Then it's perfect!

And don't worry - typing isn't bad, it's just writing on paper that gives me problems. It's a different kind of action, sooo yeah

and I think I'm boring but as long as you don't think so I guess everything is fine o3o
Aaaaa~

[amarie-val.livejournal.com]

okay! maybe I could do something more with your optimism and you something more with my optimism \o/

Really? pffff I don't want to make you type if you're tired or something ;o;

I totally totally totally don't think so ♥