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[yuuago]

Written this afternoon:

Had medieval class. Oh. My. Gods. I think I'm in love. Not just with the class, but gods, the professor is just, ahhhhh.

"Let's not worry about 'the death of the author', since all our authors are dead anyway."
"You can have illiterate authors in the middle ages - it's great!"
"It's a deathly boring book - it's just the history of the world according to Orm - and we know nobody messed with his spelling - then again, nobody would've wanted to copy this thing."
"Ooh, this is a really good read and there are all kinds of sex and violence, but I can pretend I'm being edified!"

... Yes. Just, yes. Ahhhh I miss Whetter so much it hurts, but Liu, yes... I think I'll be enjoying her class.

Anyway. I realized that I have a presentation to give on La Grande Illusion on the 23rd. Equinox, as I've mentioned before, is on the 22nd. I'm going to be in absolutely no mood to celebrate it to any large extent because (as per usual) I will be stressing out about my presentation.

... Sigh. Well. I guess I'll just have to deal with it, as per usual. I'll set aside some time later in the week, I guess. The gods don't give a crap what day it's celebrated on, so it doesn't matter. After that, there won't be anything further until Solstice, which more likely than not will be spent at my parents. Fuck. It seems like I never get to do these things the way I want to. It never used to bother me, but in the last couple of years, I just... I don't know.

Continued now:

I feel really restless. Like, I don't know, I need to get out more. Or maybe that's it. I'm not sure. I'm finding it hard to concentrate on anything right now. I'm definitely not going to be finished my readings for tomorrow, but to be perfectly honest I don't think that many other people will be completely finished either. Furthermore, the class is a very large one, so at least we'll be able to get some form of conversation going. But ugh, geh, I hated the readings we had to do for this week.

Right now I feel like I'm in a huge slump and I don't know why. Maybe it's because of school. Maybe not. Feel kind of lonely, but that is perfectly normal, absolutely not something noteworthy. I wish I knew what was wrong with me. Ah, well. It might simply be because I didn't write today. Who knows. Think I should try to make an early night of it, anyway. Bath, read some more homework, and maybe take some time to write a page - and then turn in. No use staying up for no good reason, eh?

Comments

[nickelodeon.livejournal.com]

School is for LOSERS!!

[yuuago]

And I certainly am that. ;p

...Sob.

[nickelodeon.livejournal.com]

Someday it will be over.

[yuuago]

A very long someday.
And then I'll still be stuck in school, but as prof, so I guess that's not so bad... But still.
Arrrrgh

[nickelodeon.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that part's not so bad. You get to torture your students.

[yuuago]

Ohhh lawd, trust me I know. Last year I was teaching and it was.... special. 8)
But then they called me "Mr (so-and-so)" and it made me feel SO OLD.

[nickelodeon.livejournal.com]

I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN. Gawd. I remember going to my internships in a classroom and actually staying LONGER and just loving them. But then going to CLASS right after and wanting to shoot myself in the face.

...oh gosh. I've had one parent insist on her child calling me Miss Stephanie but that's not really the same thing.

[yuuago]

After I figured out how to get them to stop staring at me like slack-jawed cows, it was pretty ace, no matter how much they bitched about having to read Sense and Sensibility.

Yeahhhh. aklsdjf. "Mr. (Surname)" and I'm like, WHAT. Noooo that's not me, that's my dad! Or even worse was the one time they called me Professor (surname). I mean, WHAT. NOOOO. NOT YET.

[nickelodeon.livejournal.com]

Your first teaching experience seems hardcore. Mine was about as lame as they get. I was in an INFANT room for a year. I say lame but I loved it. No reading assignments for them!

omfg. Professor? I'd probably die. I almost punched a kid in the store the other day for saying: "Should I give this back to that woman?" NO!! I'm still a GIRL and if you must, a LADY.

[clocksheep.livejournal.com]

eeeee I love awesome profs. <33 They really make or break a class.

I hope you get out of your slump! :( Mine always starts around november. If you have the time, regular exercise usually helps me!

oh gosh, I'm sorry, I rambled off here *facedesk*

[sabrtooth.livejournal.com]

Eeee~ Your medieval class and prof just sound superduperamazingawesome~! ♥

Equinox and Solstice are pertinent to your beliefs. Maybe it didn't bother you ages ago, but there's nothing too strange about it bothering you now. As someone who hasn't quite found what they believe in, I still often feel a longing to celebrate something, anything really. To have a special holiday with meaning and a time for personal connection with... whatever. Consumerist holidays like Christmas and Easter don't always hold the weight of having a quiet moment on a special day, especially when you aren't of a faith that encompasses these holidays anyway. *squeeze* I'm sure it's frustrating that you can't do anything on that day, but pick another and make the best of it for now if that's all you can do~ No sense making yourself too gloomy about it~

I wish there were something I could do to help you or cheer you up, really~ *hugs* Maybe once you settle into school things will get better? ♥

Re: oh gosh, I'm sorry, I rambled off here *facedesk*

[yuuago]

My medieval class is lkajdsf. No kidding. 8D

And anyway. I guess you're right. Sigh. What I'll probably end up doing is move it to the Friday (because, no school). And for Solstice I'll do what I'll usually do, move it to the first day of Saturnalia, as at that point school is over but I'm not at my parents' yet. :|

Life goes on. Soon things will be better. Probably. ;p

[hokuton_punch]

I want in on that class SO BAD. ;o; How nice it would be to read things already translated for me... XD Just for a quick change of pace.

[fabledquill.livejournal.com]

LMAO, she sounds like my CIS Comp teacher. XDDD

Restless? Maybe make a personal project for yourself to work on.... that might help.

[thecatepillar.livejournal.com]

Holy crap, your Medieval professor sounds amazing. ;3;



And it's understandable that you'd be frustrated--as sabrtooth said, even if it didn't bother you in the past, celebrating the Equinox and Solstice is important to you now. It makes sense that you'd be upset about not being able to do something for it when you wanted.