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I really miss playing Go. I do have a version of it on my computer where I can play against the robot, but it isn't the same.

Sometimes I feel like I miss Kai, but I'm pretty sure what I really miss is having someone to do things like play Go with.

And I also really miss Parzi, and in that case it's genuinely miss. She introduced me to Hikaru no Go, among other things. And she was so nice.

I have vague recollections of reading the Hikaru no Go manga, but I think it was just a few chapters. Fan translations were harder to get hold of back then. But I see now that it was eventually published in English. I would have to interlibrary loan it in order to read it, but... I think I will do that. Why not. It would be nice to finally read it properly.

And apparently the Hikaru no Go 2020 Chinese adaptation, Qi Hun/棋魂, is very good. Like, really REALLY good. And now I'm very curious... maybe I'll try to track it down. One person even compared its production values to Nirvana in Fire, which I'll admit made me raise my eyebrows a little, but... who knows.

And also I'm going to order myself a Go set. Just one of those magnetic travel-sized ones. Maybe I'll be able to convince Bea to play with me. I don't know if it's really her thing, but it's worth a try.

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I was invited to an event at the dojo for tonight, but I really don't want to go. It's a UFC watchparty. I could just go down, have some pizza, and leave after an hour or two, but it seems like a bit much when I just have no desire to do it at all.

Sometimes I make myself go to things because I feel like I should. I think it's not so much a "fear of missing out" as more like just... "I should attempt to Be Social in order to Build Relationships for the sake of my mental health". But ugh, sometimes this forced shit is just not worth the time it takes out of my day.

I feel kind of bad about it because VP messaged me, saying she really hopes that I'll go, but... no. I guess I'll just have to tell her that I can't make it. And besides that, they only told me about it yesterday afternoon. If you want me to go to something, you should make sure I have more notice than that.