Knitting misc

Went down to the knitting store to pick up some needles today, since I didn't already have the correct sizes for my next project. I'm a little bit glad that this place is in a weird part of town and I usually forget it exists, because otherwise I would likely spend way too much money there, haa. But it's sure nice to have an option aside from Walmart.

The only options they had for the size I needed were interchangable circs; so after a bit of debate, I ended up going with those. I'm sure they're lovely and convenient to use, but I'm such a scatterbrain, it's so easy to imagine myself losing the cords. But I've been getting better about putting my knitting stuff back in its original packaging after I'm finished with it, so I don't expect that many problems....

They had so many lovely skeins of Malabrigo Rasta! It's so pretty and squishy, and I was sorely tempted. But I'm trying my best not to buy anything unless I have a project in mind for it, and I have no earthly clue what I would use that stuff for. And, judging by the patterns I've glanced at that require super bulky yarn, I would need to buy yet another new pair of needles for that. ;p

The Marshmallow Fluff cowl is lovely though. Maybe something like that? (No, no, I shouldn't get ideas...!)

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I've been dealing with a whole lot of casual suicidal ideation lately. It's a real pain in the ass.

Have pinpointed two possibilities of causes:

-Lack of sunlight
-Bombarded with things that typically aggravate my already-existing depression/suicidal ideation tendencies

It's probably a bit of both.

There isn't much that I can do about the sunlight thing, because I don't see daylight on work days, and it's been too cold to go outside on weekends (lower than -30C). Though, fuck, maybe I should try anyway, even if it's cold. I'm already taking sunshine pills.

As for the other thing... Well. Partly it's due to the time of year, partly it's due to climate stuff, partly it's due to political garbage. All of it's a mess, and pretty much out of my control.

Current plan of action: exercise more, get out into sunlight on weekends if possible even when it's cold, and curate my internet experience and real-life media/conversations even more aggressively than before.

Fucking hell. Luckily I don't feel sad; I just kind of casually don't want to exist. Which is annoying as hell, but more or less manageable. But it sure does have the side-effect of leaving me very ill-tempered. I don't want to be pissed off all the time! Argh, gotta' see what I can do about this....