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[yuuago]

I think I've discovered why I've been so down in the dumps (aside from, you know, the general state of the world being plenty of reason to be down in the dumps).

I'm lonely. That's it. The people I want to spend time with live in far-flung places; I don't have any local friends. Unfortunately, this doesn't have an easy fix. I've been working on it, trying to meet local people who share my interests, but it's a long term project. And so far, no real success. In the meantime... well.

I guess in the meantime, it's just - writing little stories to make myself feel better, I guess. (And taking care of myself as good as I can, but yeah.)

It feels dumb to complain about something like this when so many people have more urgent problems. But unfortunately, it's... ugh. Very long-term project. I'm going to keep trying, but man, this shit is hard. It's always been hard, and it's always sucked, and will continue to suck for the foreseeable future.

I wish my friends lived closer to me.