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[yuuago]

Being legitimately sad about something is such a fucking pain in the ass.

Like, depression sucks too, but since I'm always depressed, it's... not a big deal, somehow. Like, my brain is defective, but by now, I've become accustomed to figuring out when it's having problems. Oh, just another chemical malfunction, no big deal - let's sleep it off.

But when I'm legitimately sad about something that's an actual problem, it's a bit harder to deal with. And it's harder, somehow, to admit to being actually sad than it is to admit to being depressed. Both things are unacceptable to talk about in polite society, but I guess I'm just more... used to one of them coming up, I guess.

Anyway. Crap goddamn sonofagun. This sucks.