(no subject)

[yuuago]

[/pinches the bridge of his nose]

My brain is being stupid, and I am so unimpressed with it. It keeps vaguely stressing out about... nothing in particular? Well then.

I think it might be because of the lesson tomorrow; with the result of, like, instead of just being worried about that one particular thing, my brain is reacting as if I should be worried about literally everything. Life. Breathing. Existing as a corporeal being in the universe. The fact that there is no air in space. Whatever.

Hopefully it'll clear up after the lesson (it probably won't, not right away). But for now I'm just going to be annoyed that I'm incorrectly calibrated.

Times like this, I just want to flop down, all dramatic-like, and yell about my fucking defective body and brain chemistry and so on and so forth.

Like, I'm not upset about it, just angry and unimpressed. There is no need for my internal security system to be screeching! I should be absolutely chill! Or at least mostly chill. But apparently the body says, "No, time to freak out now".

Fuck my body, fuck my brain, fuck this meatsack that I am forced to exist in. Ugh.