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[yuuago]

I hate that THING that happens when there are too many options, and I don't particularly feel like doing any of them (due to low energy caused by depression), so my brain just kind of short-circuits and I end up staring at the wall for an hour instead.

For fuck's sake, self, get it together.

I think I figured out what to do with the day (change the bedsheets, clean up a bit, go for a walk, read for a while at Starbucks, come home and do some laundry). But I'm so annoyed that this is a problem in the first place.

Upside: I know that this is a problem that lots of other people have, so at least I'm not alone in this.

(STILL FUCKING ANNOYING though jfc)

(Okay, okay, I'll stop wasting time and go do those things....)

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[(Anonymous)]

*hugs* Yeaaah, I get this too and in some ways I hate it more than extreme depression-sadness or other more typical negative emotions. Probably because it seems like it should be so easy to solve. Make a list, pick any thing on it, keep doing it until it's done and then move on to the next. But the brain/body just REFUSES to cooperate. Almost as if, if we sit very still, a deus ex machina will come and do the things for us. Has that ever happened, brain? Even once?

Even worse is that you can't explain it to people who don't experience it. "I didn't do what I promised you because of that thing when I get overwhelmed and do nothing all day" - they'll be like "oh so you don't care about me and are lazy". If I had a dollar for every time this happened...

May you experience this as little as possible.

LK

[yuuago]

It is SUCH a fucking pain in the ass, oh my god.

And yeah, the bit about how it SHOULD be easy to solve is part of what makes it such an utter pain in the ass.

Have you ever just, like, conked out halfway through a task? It took me half an hour to change my goddamn sheets because for SOME REASON my brain decided it would be a great idea to just stop halfway through and flop down and stare at the ceiling.

Onnn the upside, I managed to do some useful things today, so it didn't turn out too badly...!

I wish the same for you. :V V:

[(Anonymous)]

Ugh that sounds annoying. In my case, probably 90% of the time, once I properly get started, I'm good and will finish the task. But I have a significant failure rate with things where getting started is a hassle. Like when I can't find a tool I need. Or anything that involves going out of the house. So many times I've put on clothes and even shoes (we don't wear shoes indoors) and .... just.... failed to leave. Sometimes for the entire day. Looking back at that is so surreal. Part of me is like "an adult should not do that, if the building were on fire I could leave, right? So this is probably not a real problem and I'm just pretending??"

Oh, when doing house chores, having music or a podcast on helps IMMENSELY. Harder to get stuck when you have happy thoughts/energy being pumped into your brain from the outside.

But why the fuck is it such a hassle to LEARN TO WORK OUR BRAINS. *angry flailing*

LK