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yuuagoGaaaah. One of my favourite bands is going to be playing a concert in Edmonton next year. And I kind of want to go, because it's pretty rare that this band plays in Canada, doubly so in a city so close to mine.
But my brain is going haywire with anxiety for some stupid reason, and... I dunno.
It wouldn't be hard to go, and it would be a perfectly normal thing to do, and people do it all the time, but for some reason my brain is doing that thing where it FREAKS OUT as if it's the end of the world and, like, some insurmountable task, ugh. And that makes me not want to go, because even just considering the idea is taking up so much mental energy.
But I can't just not do things that sound like fun just because my brain is stupid. If I go and it's an awful experience, then at least I tried. I should be able to try new things. I shouldn't let my mental illness get in the way of doing normal things like a normal person.
And I've heard these guys do pretty great live shows, so I bet it would be a good experience.
UGH. MY BRAIN IS SO FUCKING STUPID. WHYYYYYYYY.
[edit] Sabaton is playing in Edmonton in May.
I asked my brother if he wants to go.
He said "Fine, if my schedule allows". ...And if not, my father is willing to go with me.
I now have two tickets to see Sabaton play live in Edmonton. Holy shit.
They're playing in a small night club. I have never been to a night club. This will be... interesting.
I'm VERY EXCITED but also nervous. But happy! But nervous. AHHH!
Yuu. Fic writer & book lover. M/Canada.
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Date: 2016-11-03 03:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-11-03 04:20 am (UTC)Right now I'm still in the [/breathes into a paper bag] stage of everything... Good thing is, I have several months to calm down about it. xD
Ah, yes, thanks for mentioning that, I'll have to remember to bring ear plugs....
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Date: 2016-11-04 09:48 pm (UTC)