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[yuuago]

Mnhhhh.



[/puts face in hands]

I am so sick of being around people. I just spent a week and a half around people - and while I love my friends very much, it was definitely more time spent around people than I'd usually do. And now, I'm constantly stuck around people AGAIN, with zero privacy. None whatsoever.

And of course, I can't go anywhere, because my relatives live on an acreage. There isn't any public transport or anything. I'd love to be able to fuck off to a cafe for a few hours, or a library or something, but this is not possible.

I really, really need to Not Be Around People.

Haven't been able to write much of anything since the evacuation, and I think it might be because I'm constantly around people. Just need some time alone. But I don't know when/how I can get that. Ughhh.

Maybe I can go hide in the basement? Or - well, there are walking trails nearby, I'd just have to find some bugspray... Maybe I can take the dogs on a million walks. Every day. orz

And ugh, it really does not help that my mother is just... way too optimistic. No, don't be ridiculous, of course you're going to have to buy a new fridge and deep freeze when we get back, whenever that will be. And no, we are not going to be back home by the end of the month.

I'm trying to take all of this well, but it's like. It's hard. These people are driving me crazy, and the news is depressing, and just. Ugh. ...Fortunately, mental health-wise, I feel like things are actually going relatively well in that regard. But, jfc. I just. [/vague handgesture indicating I don't have the vocabulary to express my feelings on this bullshit]

Aaaand my brother says that he might be heading to Peace River at the start of next month for a job there. I understand - he needs to work, after all - but man, I don't want to be trapped with my parents.

Ugh, I feel like this is all I talk about these days. Which really sucks - I don't want this bullshit to consume my life - but... this is what's going on right now. So. I dunno.

Comments

[hokuton_punch]

Ugh, that does sound nightmarish. D: My sympathies.

[yuuago]

Thanks. <3 SIGH

[monksandbones]

Ugh, that sounds super tough. If no better options present themselves I hope you can acquire some serious bug spray and take the dogs on all the walks!

[yuuago]

Thanks. <3 I suspect that lots of dog-walking will definitely happen. ;p

[solovei]

I totally understand that feeling. I'm kind of stuck in the suburbs which isn't AS BAD as an acreage but it still costs me at least $6 in bus fare to go anywhere at all, unless I want to walk.

*hugs* I think you're totally within your right to post as much about this as you want! I for one like getting these kinds of updates from you, since it can be kind of hard to tell what's going on through other means...

[yuuago]

<3

I'm sure that other people don't mind me posting about it, but I'm kind of getting fed up with myself for some reason, idk.

As far as what is going on re: the fire, I've been getting most of my information from CBC Edmonton, really. And the RMWoodBuffalo twitter.

I'll have to see if there's anything to like, do around here. Ffffu.

[yohjideranged]

I totally get you because I get completely exhausted being around people all the time and absolutely get cranky if I don't have my own private space to decompress (from people).

It sucks especially for you, because you can't go home yet and really, home is where you are comfortable. I hope that a little normal comes into your life soon. *big hugs*

[yuuago]

Living in someone else's house is so frustrating. I don't know where anything is, and I feel like I need to tiptoe around. orz

Normality is probably not going to happen for a while, but hopefully things will settle into a steady... thing.

[dhampyresa]

That is a very understandable feeling. *hugs*