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My. Brain. Is not cooperating.

Intellectually, I know that it's depression doing its thing. But it just feels really demoralizing when I know that I need to do things, there are lots of things that I need to do, but somehow I can't just... do it. Can't just get up and do it like a normal person. Somehow even doing really basic tasks takes up so much energy. Why.

Crap goddamnit sonova-

Sometimes just existing makes me feel exhausted.

I hate this, and I really wish I didn't have to deal with this.

I just. Ugh. Okay.

[/pinches the bridge of his nose]

Okay.

I'll do something. I'll start small. I won't be able to do the things that I had wanted to do today, but at least I will do something.

-Put 10 things away Done.
-Yoga 20 minutes
-Go for a run for 20 minutes Done.

... I should vacuum but I don't think that will happen Done!!!
And two of the things on that list are very important, self. Don't neglect them. It will help you. Even if you don't feel like they will at first.

[edit] ... I feel a little better now.