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[yuuago]

I haven't done a reading in a while, so I figured I would do one tonight. Man, I forgot how difficult these cards are to shuffle. Even though they're a standard size, they're a bit too big. Never thought I had small hands, but perhaps I do.

Anyway, tonight's draw was: The Empress + Five of Cups, both upright. Usually I only draw once, but for some reason tonight I just couldn't choose between two cards that were next to each other, so here we are.

I tend to get The Empress a lot, and for me, I usually interpret her as representing my creative energy/creative endeavours/new projects/etc etc etc. You know, writing stuff. I see no need to interpret her differently today, so let's move on.

Five of Cups... Disappointment, maybe a little pessimism, but with opportunity to pick back up again and start over/move on/go forth and try again.

To me, it's a "cup half full" (hah) situation, and one that I was already sort-of aware I was dealing with, but hadn't really wanted to address it. I've been trying lots of new things recently, and a lot of them just haven't been turning out the way that I wanted them to. Partly because I'm writing in fandoms I don't know, partly because I'm writing characters that I don't have a good grasp on, partly because I've been getting ideas for tiny fandoms and we all know that tiny fandoms mean a tiny audience. The most frustrating part, though, is that the idea sounds fine in my head, but the minute I try to put it on paper, it just feels - blah. I can write, I know I can write, but still: blah.

It's not all bad, though! Some writing is better than no writing. And I tell my friends sometimes, you need to write a ton of pages of blah before you can come out with something that's really good. And then, even after that, you'll still write more blah. You will probably never escape the blah. But the more you get the blah out of your system, the more you'll write good stuff, too.

So, I'm having a case of the blahs. So what? There's two cups left. That's something to start with.

It could be, also, that this reading could be interpreted as referring to Nordipalooza fest. It'd make sense, since it was on my mind today. I will admit, I was disappointed that there were fewer signups and submissions than there were last year. And I was disappointed that some of my friends signed up and then forgot about it. I'm also disappointed in myself for only doing one submission this year, and for waiting over a month before I got off my ass and went around to comment to everyone.

But, it isn't that big of a deal. And there's always next year, right? The Nordic 5 are popular in Hetalia fandom, so I don't think it will be difficult to get people to join up again. And I should take this year as a lesson: If you give people more time to do their submissions than you usually would, you need to Remind Them Constantly of the deadline. Either that, or stick to the usual scheduling, because no matter how much time you give people, they'll always leave it until the last minute.