First tarot deck .｡₀:*ﾟ☆

[yuuago]

I received my first tarot deck in the mail today.

If/when I write about this kind of thing, I'll tag it as 'tarot' and cut the text.



I've wanted a tarot deck for years. When I was younger, I was held back by difficulty of access. Later, I was held back by wanting to dissociate myself from the kinds of pagans that take things like fortune-telling too seriously. Then a few years ago, I actually did go looking for a deck, but I couldn't find one locally. At least, not the one I wanted. I'd thought that the local new age shop that carries them would have the Rider-Waite deck, but they didn't, even though it's one of the most well-known decks.

I asked them to order one for me, they said that they would. But they never called to say that it had come in, and I forgot about it - until recently, when I saw people on my network talking about tarot, and I remembered how much I wanted a deck.

I caved and ordered one from Amazon.

A long time ago, I found a guide to the tarot on my mother's bookcase, the one she kept in the basement with all the stuff that she never looked at any more. The cards were gone, but the book was still there. It's mine now.

Anyway. Now, I have a deck of cards. I have a good feeling about them. Well, okay, I bought them from Amazon. Which is a little disappointing - I should have tried again with the new age place; it's better to support local businesses. And they smell a little funny, kind of plastic-y, which is probably because they're brand new, and they were wrapped in plastic inside the box. But, they're mine. And the smell will go away eventually. Especially since I ordered some solid perfume samples from ForStrangeWomen on etsy - she sends solid samples as scented ribbons, and I'm going to wrap the deck in one of the ones that I like best.

Right now, I've wrapped them in a silk scarf. It was my grandmother's. I never wear it because it has rips in it, and the colours don't go with any of my clothes, anyway. But I'd never get rid of it, because it was hers.

I plan to mostly use tarot readings as personal meditation. I'm going to start with one-card readings first, and probably keep it that way for quite a while. I don't want to do anything too complicated. There's a lot that one card can give you to think about, too.

I did my first one-card reading tonight.

It was Death. I kind of had to laugh. It seems kind of cliche. Like something out of a movie or something. I already knew what the card meant, though, or at least a general idea, so I wasn't worried.

Part of my book's description says this:

Death is a protest against stagnation

and also:

Death is the twin brother of Life. Creation necessitates its opposite - destruction.

I like that.

I've been a little nervous lately. I have a lot of bad habits, and they affect me negatively with regards to work. Not necessarily as far as my output goes, but more like - I am doing all right, but I could be better. So, this has been making me a little anxious. Not a "constantly there" sort of anxious, more like background noise that's bothersome but you can ignore for the most part.

Maybe it's time to stop ignoring it. Or at least work on that. In small bits.

I have good feelings about this deck.