Man, am I ever not tired these days?

[yuuago]

I really need to learn to not go in bookstores. Every time I do, I come out with a novel, sometimes two, and really, I don't need any more books. But it is seriously hard to resist sometimes.

Been thinking of picking up the Lord of the Rings as well... because back when I read it, it'd been library copies. Hmm. Well, we will seeeee. I remember really disliking it back in the day, but my tastes have changed a bit over the years, not to mention that when I tried reading it I was 13 or so and honestly, I might not have had the patience to get through Tolkien's... everything. Yep. Loved The Hobbit, hated LOTR.

Ugh, lately there are so many things that need to be done, and so many tasks and people demanding my attention both in real life and online, and I'm getting close to the point where I just want to throw a fit and go hide somewhere. I don't want to do anything for anybody whatsoever. I just want to take the downtime that I need (but will not get) and make a blanket fort and stick myself in there all day and read. Or something.

My buddy Icelilly is going to be running a Nor/Ice fest of sorts sometime soon, and I'm looking forward to that. But whether or not things will turn out ideally... that's another question. In a couple of weeks I'm going to be getting that oral surgery that I need (that sinus augmentation thing - I've mentioned it before), and between recovering from that and all this other shit I have to deal with in real life, I wonder if I'm going to have the time and energy to write anything. :| Probably not. Oh well, I guess if I'm stubborn enough, I'll find a way somehow. Some kind of hiatus from the internet might be involved.

Still haven't gotten around to reading the Nordipalooza fest results. But probably tonight and tomorrow hopefully. It's just really hard to get anything done, even fun things that I want to do, because there aren't enough hours in the day and when I do have a scrap of time that is free for anything rather than scheduled stuff that needs to be done, all I want to do is nap.

I've been doing pretty well with keeping up with that whole walking thing, but I'm still not at the point that I'd like. Ideally, I'd love to finish at least the Bag End - Rivendell part of the walk in a year. 458 miles in 365 days... I'd need to do about 1.25 miles every single day in order to accomplish that, and that isn't where I'm at right now. (I'd need to be at about 138 miles right now. I'm at 92.) It isn't so late that I can't accomplish that, but if I'm going to do that, then I really need to step up my game here and start doing at least two miles every single day, no exceptions. ... Which is really hard to do when I'm exhausted from work, but I'm going to try.

We'll see what happens.

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[kainoliero.livejournal.com]

Oh I know that feel. Worse even, fleamarkets and old book stores that sell tattered paperback copies of things one does not need to read but oh my god how much want. You should see my bookshelf back home in Finland (when I moved out I made a solemn decision of only buying world classics; little did I know what the term "world classic" ended up meaning).

I've been noticing this worrying theme in your LJ entries for a long time now, and sorry if I come across badly but you need to trim down on the things you're doing. You write like wanting to rest was somehow selfish of you but it's not, and you need it! I'd go as far as to say throw away everything that's not crucially important or make you feel good. Reschedule everything that you can. Nordicpalooza fics can wait - the people who wrote them will feel happily surprised when they get a comment on their work no matter if it takes you three months to get to it. (Actually that might even save a day, a totally random moment of kindness that comes out of the blue.) It's not a pressing issue atm and you shouldn't make it one.

So yeah HAVE THAT NAP. Have another. Have three. Have ALL the naps and have them in a blanket fort with a pile of good books at hand. The world can wait.

[yuuago]

Old book stores yesss they're my favourite <3 Unfortunately we don't have any around here but whenever I end up in a city that has one it's so hard to resist taking a million things back home with me.

I... ah. Well. I'm a bit surprised that anybody noticed, because me flailing over things isn't unusual, but I'm kind of glad for it. Don't worry, you don't come across badly.

You write like wanting to rest is somehow selfish of you ... Ah. Yeah. I guess it's kind of a subconscious thing; whenever I try to just relax I keep thinking about all the things I have to do and all the chores that aren't done and I feel like I'm wasting time that should be spent on other things. Normally it wouldn't be so bad but now that I have to do everything around the house it's just frustrating. Maybe I just worry about the things that don't matter much because then I worry less about the thing that are important. Or something.

This weekend has just been extra bad because most of the time that I normally would have used for doing household stuff or fun things has all been taken up by figuring out how to file my tax return ffff. So now I'm left with very little time left to do the things that need to be done and it's like argh whyyyyy.

(But yeah, I will definitely put commenting aside for about a month or so. Commenting culture is pretty much a zombie on LJ anyway, so I doubt anyone will even notice.)

... I should probably take some vacation time off from work or something, maybe after I have that surgery, it isn't a major thing but I probably will be so sore and cranky that it wouldn't be a good idea to come into the office anyway, heh. And a few days wouldn't hurt anything.

Oh gods, sorry for dumping all this nonsense on you, I know it wasn't necessary. orz

[kainoliero.livejournal.com]

Heh, that reminds me I still need to fill in my tax return papers (not due before May though so I ought to be still ok). One day I'll be rich and powerful and have an accountant. Yes.

Vacation sounds like a plan! Although blanket forts are also a plan. I might have to make one soon-ish because I've been thinking of them non-stop since this entry here. :3 And no problem, I don't mind.