Sunny day~
Jun. 26th, 2009 01:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yuuagoToday thus far has been most excellent.
I spent a good portion of the early morning talking with a certain person, and it was good... Very good. Ahh. Anyway, after a nap and a late breakfast, I went out for a run. Well, by 'run' I mean speedwalk punctuated by jogging, but whatever. Just made the river-park loop, then made my way down the rich-people street back to Five Corners. It was really nice! I'm glad I decided to do it early in the day, as now it's a bit to hot for that sort of thing.
Anyway, I've resolved to do that every day, at the very least. Perhaps longer outings if I feel like it - but that route at the minimum. Well -- actually, it was Sab's idea, but anyway. Since I don't have a labour-intensive retail job like I did last year, I really have absolutely no excuse not to go out for a long speedwalk every day. So, I'm going to do that - starting today! I think it's a great way to start the day; long walk then a cold shower, hmm... And maybe doing this will help me re-orient my sleeping patterns somehow, if I always do it before noon.
Anyway. While I was out on my walk, I noticed that the wild roses are in bloom. I'd seen a few shrubs planted downtown - and found it odd, as I never saw them deliberately planted back home - and it just plain didn't occur to me that they'd grow wild in the bush here. Derp. Silly me. Of course Alberta's provincial flower isn't bound by Alberta's borders! Ahh, but seeing them made me so happy. I might not have my forest, but at least I have my roses.
Ugh, it is so warm out. Okay, well, 24C isn't too bad, but I don't do well with heat at all, and I was out walking around in it (again, after I took my walk, I mean). At least I have my nice loose-cotton shirts, the kind with huge, long sleeves and groovy embroidery. I should see if I can find another. This style is so 2006, but it's functional damnit. I hate wearing short sleeves; I'd much rather cover up, but of course I can't wear anything tight as that would be too warm.
I'm rather pleased right now, as I finally found a copy of Scofield's Singing Home The Bones for Tikula. Excellent. At Turning the Tide, as I thought; and it was on clearance. Huzzah. So, I only need to find a few goodies for her, and then I can send that out. I shan't do that today, though. I think I'll go hang out at the Roastery - it's a lovely day, and the main floor is air-conditioned, which is pretty nice. I've kept the blinds down constantly, so my apartment is not too hot thus far, but I hate the fact that there is no ventilation.
So. I received a letter from the school.
I had to go to the post office to get it, as it was sent registered. Mm. Had to sign for it.
So now I'm here, staring at it, and I can't open it. Well hello, anxiety, how are you today? Mn. I thought I was doing better, but I guess not.
Well, if they sent me a letter, surely it's important. And surely I'll open it. Surely. But not now. I just, argh, I can't.
I hate this. I'm doing a bit better than I was, but still, I just. I don't know. I feel so crappy and weak because there are some normal things that are so difficult to do because I get fucking terrified.
Goddamnit, self, it's a letter from the school. What's there to be scared of? Or, alternately: why can't I go into small indie stores? There's nothing to be scared of. And yet, I still haven't bought my bicycle, and that is the reason.
Fuckin' hell. Well, aside from this, my day has been good, and I'm not going to let this ruin it.
I spent a good portion of the early morning talking with a certain person, and it was good... Very good. Ahh. Anyway, after a nap and a late breakfast, I went out for a run. Well, by 'run' I mean speedwalk punctuated by jogging, but whatever. Just made the river-park loop, then made my way down the rich-people street back to Five Corners. It was really nice! I'm glad I decided to do it early in the day, as now it's a bit to hot for that sort of thing.
Anyway, I've resolved to do that every day, at the very least. Perhaps longer outings if I feel like it - but that route at the minimum. Well -- actually, it was Sab's idea, but anyway. Since I don't have a labour-intensive retail job like I did last year, I really have absolutely no excuse not to go out for a long speedwalk every day. So, I'm going to do that - starting today! I think it's a great way to start the day; long walk then a cold shower, hmm... And maybe doing this will help me re-orient my sleeping patterns somehow, if I always do it before noon.
Anyway. While I was out on my walk, I noticed that the wild roses are in bloom. I'd seen a few shrubs planted downtown - and found it odd, as I never saw them deliberately planted back home - and it just plain didn't occur to me that they'd grow wild in the bush here. Derp. Silly me. Of course Alberta's provincial flower isn't bound by Alberta's borders! Ahh, but seeing them made me so happy. I might not have my forest, but at least I have my roses.
Ugh, it is so warm out. Okay, well, 24C isn't too bad, but I don't do well with heat at all, and I was out walking around in it (again, after I took my walk, I mean). At least I have my nice loose-cotton shirts, the kind with huge, long sleeves and groovy embroidery. I should see if I can find another. This style is so 2006, but it's functional damnit. I hate wearing short sleeves; I'd much rather cover up, but of course I can't wear anything tight as that would be too warm.
I'm rather pleased right now, as I finally found a copy of Scofield's Singing Home The Bones for Tikula. Excellent. At Turning the Tide, as I thought; and it was on clearance. Huzzah. So, I only need to find a few goodies for her, and then I can send that out. I shan't do that today, though. I think I'll go hang out at the Roastery - it's a lovely day, and the main floor is air-conditioned, which is pretty nice. I've kept the blinds down constantly, so my apartment is not too hot thus far, but I hate the fact that there is no ventilation.
So. I received a letter from the school.
I had to go to the post office to get it, as it was sent registered. Mm. Had to sign for it.
So now I'm here, staring at it, and I can't open it. Well hello, anxiety, how are you today? Mn. I thought I was doing better, but I guess not.
Well, if they sent me a letter, surely it's important. And surely I'll open it. Surely. But not now. I just, argh, I can't.
I hate this. I'm doing a bit better than I was, but still, I just. I don't know. I feel so crappy and weak because there are some normal things that are so difficult to do because I get fucking terrified.
Goddamnit, self, it's a letter from the school. What's there to be scared of? Or, alternately: why can't I go into small indie stores? There's nothing to be scared of. And yet, I still haven't bought my bicycle, and that is the reason.
Fuckin' hell. Well, aside from this, my day has been good, and I'm not going to let this ruin it.
Yuu. Fic writer & book lover. M/Canada.![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
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Date: 2009-06-26 10:09 pm (UTC)Let me tell you, you're not alone is persistent school related anxiety, buddy. I didn't even check my second term marks until June 23rd (my exams ended the 20th of April) because I was too much of a wuss to face the consequences of my actions. :c
But, I eventually was able to overcome, and I know you can do it too! You're a cool dude and I believe in you! ♥ ♥
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Date: 2009-06-26 11:58 pm (UTC)Surely I'll overcome it - possibly with nagging from others. A certain person has been roped into said nagging, so I think that shall help. Yes. ♥
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Date: 2009-06-26 11:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-06-26 11:57 pm (UTC)As for the letter - well, I am not too sure; I have not done very well in school this semester - but we will see. For the most part otherwise, things have been going excellent, and I have been of good cheer~!
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Date: 2009-06-27 01:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-06-28 05:43 am (UTC)Your run sounds good and has made me try to run as well!