School, Books, Shrinks and Hetalia
Jan. 6th, 2009 11:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
yuuagoI hate the word "morals". Ugh. I think I said it at one point, but I'll say it again. It just feels gross in my mouth. Moralsssss. Yuck.
And it's a very Christian word, so I don't like it being applied to me.
Anyway.
First Aboriginal lit class of the year went well. This semester we (as a group) will be writing a collaborative essay on Cambell's Halfbreed and submitting it to a journal. I hope this works out. That publication would look awesome on my CV.
I have a class on 18th-century lit next. I'm sure it'll be all right, but, I don't know. I'm not a huge fan of that centry. Might come as a surprise, considering I voluntarily took two undergrad classes on it. That was because of the professor. :/ I miss Ahern. Well, I really miss all my Acadia profs, actually.
*flop* I need to buy textbooks. It's going to be expensive this semester. Sigh. I tried scouring the used bookstores for copies of the stuff we're reading for my Aboriginal lit and Oral Canadian lit classes, but was only able to find one of the books. Ugh. And I bought a book I need to read for another class; got the cheapo paperback version at Coles, and used my gift card so I didn't have to pay for it.
Oy. Book store gift cards. It's always so hard to decide with those. Might as well use it for textbooks. I just don't know what I waannnnnt. I see all these things I want to read, but can't decide, so then I don't get anything. There is a book on the Canadian involvement at Vimy Ridge that I'm interested in, and one on the War of 1812 - but I know for a fact that the one on the War of 1812 is in the library. I used it for that hugeass project on Laura Secord. It's very good, but I can't justify buying it, especially since I already have it signed out.
I also saw the complete Persepolis, and considered that, but didn't. I'm not sure why. I read part 2 last year, and loved it. And the movie was awesome. Sigh.
Of course they had Watchmen too, and I want to read it, but I don't like going into graphic novels blind. Mostly because they're so expensive, and generally I don't re-read them unless they are amazing, like V for Vendetta - which I still don't own, mostly because I want the hardcover version because I love it just that much (I am a person who usually hates hardcover anything because they take up so much room).
Anyway, Watchmen. I want to read it, but won't buy it. So I need to see if some library has it, or if there is someone I can borrow it from, because I really want to see what all the fuss is about.
Shit. What else was I going to say. Forgot it. I really hate when I forget to bring lunch at school. If I'm finished up by around 1 or so, it's not that bad, but I'm going until 3 today so I can't skip it because I'd be starving in class and not able to concentrate. Sigh. Maybe I'll take to making myself PBJ sammiches in the evening before bed or something. Alas.
What else. Oh yes. My appointment with the psychiatrist went well, but unfortunately because the clinic was very busy it was just a short one. We're having a longer session this Thursday. He says that it's a bit early to tell, but based on our conversation, he thinks I might benefit from medication. I don't know how I feel about that. I guess I should wait until we talk more, on Thursday. I've heard so many bad things about medication that I really don't like the thought of being on it, but at the same time sometimes it really does help people. And I keep thinking about last semester, how I'd go into depressive episodes days before assignments were due, and would lose at least a whole day, sometimes two, as I was completely incapable of working (or getting out of bed at some points). I don't know. *pulls hair* Maybe I should talk to some people I know who are on meds. I know Rak takes some for anxiety, at least.
Ugh. And I'm playing telephone tag with my therapist. I couldn't bring myself to call her (really need to work on that) so I went into the building, but the receptionist said this therapist only makes appointments over the phone. So I left my number, so she could call me, and I think she called me yesterday but I missed it. Need to check though. SO, in short, I need to call her anyway. Arrrrgh, I hate telephones. Hate with a PASSION. Even calling people I know makes me nervous (though in those cases, it's for a slightly different reason).
On a more positive note, I have the urge to write fanfiction. Wtf. Maybe I'll write it. The idea is just fluff, mind, and would result in nothing more than a prose sketch. But I can think of a picture or two that I could draw to go along with it, and if the pictures turned out, they'd be pretty cute. But, wtf. I can't get anywhere on my ghost story, but all of a sudden I'm wanting to write fanfiction again, after how many years? (Excluding that one thing with Snape that I wrote last semester). It's just weird. Well, that's Hetalia for you, I guess. It gets me really excited.
I'm not sure how I feel about the way fanwriters/artists generally portray Canada. Hm. All.. sweet. And "moe" (I'm still not sure wtf that word means, though I have a general idea. Urbandictionary didn't help too much. I still don't get it). In some ways it fits, but at the other time not so much. Sweet, yes, but kind of... drippy? Eh. When I re-read the translation of the parts with him in it, I don't get the same impression. Somewhat, especially initially when everyone is forgetting him and not recognizing who he is and such, but at the same time, definitely not drippy - especially later on, when he goes into that big rant and upsets USA (hah). I think, as far as fanversions goes, I prefer the, eh, somewhat tougher version of Canada, which I don't see as often. I'm thinking specifically of a version I saw in a two-part fic involving Canada/Seychelles. Can't remember offhand who wrote it.
... Reading that over, I realize that I probably just don't like my nation being portrayed as a drip. And hope that isn't really the way people see us. Oh dear. xD
And it's a very Christian word, so I don't like it being applied to me.
Anyway.
First Aboriginal lit class of the year went well. This semester we (as a group) will be writing a collaborative essay on Cambell's Halfbreed and submitting it to a journal. I hope this works out. That publication would look awesome on my CV.
I have a class on 18th-century lit next. I'm sure it'll be all right, but, I don't know. I'm not a huge fan of that centry. Might come as a surprise, considering I voluntarily took two undergrad classes on it. That was because of the professor. :/ I miss Ahern. Well, I really miss all my Acadia profs, actually.
*flop* I need to buy textbooks. It's going to be expensive this semester. Sigh. I tried scouring the used bookstores for copies of the stuff we're reading for my Aboriginal lit and Oral Canadian lit classes, but was only able to find one of the books. Ugh. And I bought a book I need to read for another class; got the cheapo paperback version at Coles, and used my gift card so I didn't have to pay for it.
Oy. Book store gift cards. It's always so hard to decide with those. Might as well use it for textbooks. I just don't know what I waannnnnt. I see all these things I want to read, but can't decide, so then I don't get anything. There is a book on the Canadian involvement at Vimy Ridge that I'm interested in, and one on the War of 1812 - but I know for a fact that the one on the War of 1812 is in the library. I used it for that hugeass project on Laura Secord. It's very good, but I can't justify buying it, especially since I already have it signed out.
I also saw the complete Persepolis, and considered that, but didn't. I'm not sure why. I read part 2 last year, and loved it. And the movie was awesome. Sigh.
Of course they had Watchmen too, and I want to read it, but I don't like going into graphic novels blind. Mostly because they're so expensive, and generally I don't re-read them unless they are amazing, like V for Vendetta - which I still don't own, mostly because I want the hardcover version because I love it just that much (I am a person who usually hates hardcover anything because they take up so much room).
Anyway, Watchmen. I want to read it, but won't buy it. So I need to see if some library has it, or if there is someone I can borrow it from, because I really want to see what all the fuss is about.
Shit. What else was I going to say. Forgot it. I really hate when I forget to bring lunch at school. If I'm finished up by around 1 or so, it's not that bad, but I'm going until 3 today so I can't skip it because I'd be starving in class and not able to concentrate. Sigh. Maybe I'll take to making myself PBJ sammiches in the evening before bed or something. Alas.
What else. Oh yes. My appointment with the psychiatrist went well, but unfortunately because the clinic was very busy it was just a short one. We're having a longer session this Thursday. He says that it's a bit early to tell, but based on our conversation, he thinks I might benefit from medication. I don't know how I feel about that. I guess I should wait until we talk more, on Thursday. I've heard so many bad things about medication that I really don't like the thought of being on it, but at the same time sometimes it really does help people. And I keep thinking about last semester, how I'd go into depressive episodes days before assignments were due, and would lose at least a whole day, sometimes two, as I was completely incapable of working (or getting out of bed at some points). I don't know. *pulls hair* Maybe I should talk to some people I know who are on meds. I know Rak takes some for anxiety, at least.
Ugh. And I'm playing telephone tag with my therapist. I couldn't bring myself to call her (really need to work on that) so I went into the building, but the receptionist said this therapist only makes appointments over the phone. So I left my number, so she could call me, and I think she called me yesterday but I missed it. Need to check though. SO, in short, I need to call her anyway. Arrrrgh, I hate telephones. Hate with a PASSION. Even calling people I know makes me nervous (though in those cases, it's for a slightly different reason).
On a more positive note, I have the urge to write fanfiction. Wtf. Maybe I'll write it. The idea is just fluff, mind, and would result in nothing more than a prose sketch. But I can think of a picture or two that I could draw to go along with it, and if the pictures turned out, they'd be pretty cute. But, wtf. I can't get anywhere on my ghost story, but all of a sudden I'm wanting to write fanfiction again, after how many years? (Excluding that one thing with Snape that I wrote last semester). It's just weird. Well, that's Hetalia for you, I guess. It gets me really excited.
I'm not sure how I feel about the way fanwriters/artists generally portray Canada. Hm. All.. sweet. And "moe" (I'm still not sure wtf that word means, though I have a general idea. Urbandictionary didn't help too much. I still don't get it). In some ways it fits, but at the other time not so much. Sweet, yes, but kind of... drippy? Eh. When I re-read the translation of the parts with him in it, I don't get the same impression. Somewhat, especially initially when everyone is forgetting him and not recognizing who he is and such, but at the same time, definitely not drippy - especially later on, when he goes into that big rant and upsets USA (hah). I think, as far as fanversions goes, I prefer the, eh, somewhat tougher version of Canada, which I don't see as often. I'm thinking specifically of a version I saw in a two-part fic involving Canada/Seychelles. Can't remember offhand who wrote it.
... Reading that over, I realize that I probably just don't like my nation being portrayed as a drip. And hope that isn't really the way people see us. Oh dear. xD
Yuu. Fic writer & book lover. M/Canada.![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
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Date: 2009-01-06 11:31 pm (UTC)As for Canada...he's a mixed bag! I think a lot of Hetalia fanfic writers are just going by the pictures. Especially in the Japanese fanart, he is almost consistently uber-cute and "moe". You know I love the Japanese, but they tend to stick characters with labels and then leave them there. The Canada in the comics is more varied; he's very kind and polite and doesn't want to cause trouble, but with a passive-aggressive kind of streak, and when he's pushed to far suddenly boom! He gets very passionate. It's like I was telling a friend, "Canadians are a very proud people."
I've seen a lot of more varied versions of Canada, but maybe I'm just lucky or happen to pick the right writers. I think there are a lot of Canadian Hetalia fans; everytime I've seen a version of Canada I really liked it usually turned out to be drawn/written by a Canadian fan...
And this isn't fic, but art, but I think it's a sufficient antidote after seeing too much 'moe' Canada. Totally anti-moe Canada (http://blacknoise.deviantart.com/art/Hetalia-Meme-1-106097806)! He's pretty hot. (I think the artist wrote the Canada/Seychelles thing but I haven't gotten around to reading those yet.) Perhaps you two can commiserate.
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Date: 2009-01-07 12:08 am (UTC)Ahaha. Yes, we are very proud... sometimes, maybe a little too proud.
Omfg. Anti-moe Canada. I love you for linking me to that.
(And I'm still not sure wtf 'moe' means. It's a very silly word.)
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Date: 2009-01-07 12:14 am (UTC)I love all my proud Canadian friends <3. Especially my first one! (I was about to do this meme I saw on a friend's lj, but then gave up, but I remember one question was 'What friend have you had the longest?' ...and since I've done so much moving around, the answer was you. Can you believe it's been ten years we've known each other?)
And yes, anti-moe Canada is hot. I think that strip made me want to read all kinds of stories where Canada invades America's 'vital regions'. But there aren't so many of those! :/
And I wish I could explain moe....but I can't. I only know myself because while I was in Japan I had a course about Japanese youth culture and we actually spent half a class on 'moe'. But I couldn't explain it back to anyone.
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Date: 2009-01-06 11:39 pm (UTC)no subject
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