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My physio appointment was today, but I don't feel like I have any more information than I did before.

I went in, received the treatment with the heat and the gel and the ultrasound, and then the person giving me the treatment (? the... nurse? or a different physiotherapist than the one I saw last time??) was like "Okay, you're done! :)" - and that was it. There wasn't any information about whether I need to keep doing the exercises the physiotherapist gave me last time I was there, and there weren't any questions about how the injury was doing, and there wasn't any opportunity for me to ask questions about what I should do next and when I will be able to resume normal activity.

Thing is, last time, the guy from my first appointment talked as if I was going to see him in two weeks and we were going to discuss those things. And like... the only physio appointments I've ever had were these two, the previous and this one. So, I don't know what's normal. And I don't know what to do next.

And I feel pretty stupid, because I could have just asked. "Okay, what next?" And if she wasn't able to tell me, or if it's too early to give definite information, she would have said so. If I had asked. But I was so confused that I just... didn't ask.

I do have another appointment next week, so I can ask "what next?" then. But I'm kicking myself for not having the brains to open my damn mouth. I feel so stupid.

And like. I wonder if I should make a doctor appointment instead. And if so, should that be with my normal doctor? Or the doctor in the off-hours clinic that I went to? I don't know. I guess I'll go to my next physio appointment and decide this after, depending on how that goes, whether I should. Probably my normal doctor would make the most sense. And I'll also have to check with my supervisor and see whether I can use sick time for medical appointments, or whether it'll have to come out of my vacation time. Normally I try to save sick time in case of emergency, but since it's almost the end of the year, I guess I don't mind using it, if I'm allowed to.

I just feel really shitty and stupid over this, even though it isn't really a huge deal. And I wish I knew when I could start exercising again. I don't like being inactive. So... I'm going to do what I can with the bodyweight exercises over the next few days, and I'm going to continue the exercises that the physiotherapist assigned me, and hopefully at my next appointment I will be able to get more information. Otherwise... ugh.

Anyway. I went to get a coffee afterward; Brandon was working today. He's involved with Pride YMM, so I saw him at the meeting a few days ago, but it was nice to see him again - the cafe's been closed recently, so I haven't been encountering him much. He's just a really nice and friendly person, so it's great to talk with him, even if it's a very brief exchange while I wait for my drink. ...That was the highlight of my day, and I feel kind of pathetic for it, but it's just that I feel so bad about the other stuff that I guess this small thing is great in comparison.