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I burst into tears and cried for a couple of hours yesterday. It was really weird.

Like, okay - it was sparked by reading about something serious and awful (Hungary passing that anti-LGBT "propaganda" law) but normally with something like that, I would just feel kind of sad and useless, not... whatever the hell that was.

I think that it's just that I'm stressed out and overworked and it's coming out in some weird ways. But that sure was something.

I've also been feeling kind of bad this month so far, because pride month comes with so much in-community bickering on the one hand, and on the other hand so many people have it really really hard (Not just the thing with Hungary. I'm thinking mostly of my friend in Poland, and how it really isn't easy to be not cis/straight there, to put it mildly.) It all feels like one big tense mess.

I just. [/DEEP, LONG SIGH]

I guess I need to go lie down.

Hmmm

I wrote some frankly bizarre Michael/Sasha, and I haven't the foggiest idea of what to do with it.

On the one hand, I kind of want to just post it quietly to DW and not crosspost it anywhere else. On the other hand, it's a rarepair with only two pages of fic on Ao3; other people who like this pairing might enjoy it! On the third hand, it's the weirdest porn I've ever written and I'm kind of embarrassed. On the fourth hand, weird porn is par for the course with TMA, and considering one half of this pairing is a literally a hallway that vores people and sometimes steals their appearance... uh... well. I mean. [/SHRUG]

Realistically speaking: I will let this fic sit for at least two months (probably more), will type it up and then edit the hell out of it over the course of a few weeks while desperately ignoring other projects, and by the time it's properly finished I'll be so thoroughly sick of it that I won't care about anything at all.

(I still haven't typed up that Gertrude & Michael Shelley thing I wrote a while back.)

Also, I keep trying to figure out Michael's timeline, which is a fool's errand because it's just. Totally fucked. The dates are all wrong and it doesn't make sense.

...I really should be working on one of my auction fics instead.