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So, years ago, one of my mates gave me some pencils with Moomin characters on them.

I took one look at them, and thought, "These are way too nice to use". And then I put them in a drawer. And they sat there for about a decade.

I just sharpened one. And I'm going to use it for everyday things.

It seems so silly, but it actually felt rather freeing.

See, I've had a lot of experience in the past with relatives giving me nice things that theoretically have a practical function, and then acting all scandalized when I wanted to use those things for their intended purpose. I ended up kind of internalizing the idea of "nice things are not to be used". Which - well, I doubt that's what those relatives intended, but brains are weird.

There is no point in having anything at all if it's just going to sit in a drawer or get shoved to the back of a closet!

...So. I've been trying to enjoy the things I have. Not just these pencils; that's just an example from today. It feels good!