On the subject of electronics... ahhhh they just hate me in general. Always breaking down and never doing what I want. I've gotten good about backing up my shit. The important stuff gets backed up on thumbdrive every time I alter it, of course. 'cause I can't afford to lose even my old school stuff. SIGH. Anyway, I might steal your idea of saying something is going weird with the ISP, because that explains everything and keeps her from whining at me.
Long-term plans... hmm. Well, I'm probably going to stay here for my PhD, just because it will be easier to get in here than anywhere else (dunno if they'd want to put up with me for four more years though. Hah). Unfortunately for me there isn't really anything at the school for social stuff, but maybe I'll get off my butt and see if there's anything in the town that I could get involved in. Maybe I could just get a real job... might not make me any friends, but at least it'll get me out of th house.
Meeting people is just... argh, so difficult. I am a complete awkward loser. When Sab met me at the airport, apparently she found me really intimidating (though I thought I was doing rather well, shit) and several days later, when we were finally a bit less awkward, she compared me to Sweden. Now that I think of it the comparison totally fits. ;~; I'm so... gruff and my default expression is :| and people used to say that about me when I was in high school, but I'd hoped to grow out of it, arrrrrgh. ...Anyway. Enough whining from me.
"I don't even think I've seen moose meat anywhere" Ffff. In the city? No way. Y'can't buy that stuff, mate. 8D Have to know a hunter in order to get it, really. I'm glad my dad is into that kind of thing, else we probably wouldn't get as much as we do. And occasionally we'd receive deer saussage and such from his hunting buddies. SO GOOD. Mmmm now I want some.
But anyway, about the desire for recognition and so on - yes, you're probably right about that. A lot of the time when people do things, it's because of that... To be honest, I look for it a lot too. I wouldn't post things (writing etc) publicly if I didn't. But I try to be realistic about it, which is something I feel is not a characteristic shared by those who set out with the intention of becoming big in such-and-such (be it writing or acting or whatever). There are so many factors in it, that it's hard to determine what will work. The only factors I've taken note of are 1. visibility and 2. moderate quality, at least. So, I try to steer myself in that direction. Not doing so hot with the original stuff right now, but as far as fic goes it's working, though I'm kind of failing in the visibility department at the moment.
Television... fff. My parents watch it every night, and I just can't be bothered, but when I was living with them I'd get nagged at if I didn't come down to the living room. Generally what I'd end up doing is I'd work on embroidery or knit or something while half-watching whatever crime drama they were staring at that night. I just can't sit there with a television. I get bored, even if it's something good. SIGH.
As for Nosferatu, I was refering to the silent film from the '20s, yes. SCARY SHIT, oh my god. Well, at least, I found it frightening. I haven't seen the other one, though. But anyway, as for monsters... hmm, I don't know. I suppose the change does suggest something good. On the other hand, the shift has produced literature etc featuring villains who are rather... wishy-washy. I don't know, I suppose it's just that sometimes, I want to read about something evil - rather, good triumphing over something that is undeniably evil and monstrous. While the real world is of course rarely so clean-cut, it's so nice to read about evil when it is done well (and unfortunately this rarely happens, especially nowadays).
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Date: 2009-08-20 07:11 am (UTC)Long-term plans... hmm. Well, I'm probably going to stay here for my PhD, just because it will be easier to get in here than anywhere else (dunno if they'd want to put up with me for four more years though. Hah). Unfortunately for me there isn't really anything at the school for social stuff, but maybe I'll get off my butt and see if there's anything in the town that I could get involved in. Maybe I could just get a real job... might not make me any friends, but at least it'll get me out of th house.
Meeting people is just... argh, so difficult. I am a complete awkward loser. When Sab met me at the airport, apparently she found me really intimidating (though I thought I was doing rather well, shit) and several days later, when we were finally a bit less awkward, she compared me to Sweden. Now that I think of it the comparison totally fits. ;~; I'm so... gruff and my default expression is :| and people used to say that about me when I was in high school, but I'd hoped to grow out of it, arrrrrgh. ...Anyway. Enough whining from me.
"I don't even think I've seen moose meat anywhere"
Ffff. In the city? No way. Y'can't buy that stuff, mate. 8D Have to know a hunter in order to get it, really. I'm glad my dad is into that kind of thing, else we probably wouldn't get as much as we do. And occasionally we'd receive deer saussage and such from his hunting buddies. SO GOOD. Mmmm now I want some.
But anyway, about the desire for recognition and so on - yes, you're probably right about that. A lot of the time when people do things, it's because of that... To be honest, I look for it a lot too. I wouldn't post things (writing etc) publicly if I didn't. But I try to be realistic about it, which is something I feel is not a characteristic shared by those who set out with the intention of becoming big in such-and-such (be it writing or acting or whatever). There are so many factors in it, that it's hard to determine what will work. The only factors I've taken note of are 1. visibility and 2. moderate quality, at least. So, I try to steer myself in that direction. Not doing so hot with the original stuff right now, but as far as fic goes it's working, though I'm kind of failing in the visibility department at the moment.
Television... fff. My parents watch it every night, and I just can't be bothered, but when I was living with them I'd get nagged at if I didn't come down to the living room. Generally what I'd end up doing is I'd work on embroidery or knit or something while half-watching whatever crime drama they were staring at that night. I just can't sit there with a television. I get bored, even if it's something good. SIGH.
As for Nosferatu, I was refering to the silent film from the '20s, yes. SCARY SHIT, oh my god. Well, at least, I found it frightening. I haven't seen the other one, though. But anyway, as for monsters... hmm, I don't know. I suppose the change does suggest something good. On the other hand, the shift has produced literature etc featuring villains who are rather... wishy-washy. I don't know, I suppose it's just that sometimes, I want to read about something evil - rather, good triumphing over something that is undeniably evil and monstrous. While the real world is of course rarely so clean-cut, it's so nice to read about evil when it is done well (and unfortunately this rarely happens, especially nowadays).