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Well. Turns out that I was coming down with something. So, I have to skip judo tonight. I'm not happy about it, but I am way too congested for that kind of thing.

The 3k race is on Sunday. We'll see how I feel then, I guess.

Last Christmas, my mom gave me some fancy Korean tea bases. They're like, honey infused with herbs and such. Anyway, I opened the red ginseng one tonight. I guess now's as good a time as any. Had expected that I wouldn't like this one, because I don't enjoy the scent of red ginseng much, but it tastes quite nice (to the extent that I am able to taste anything at the moment, at any rate). There is also one available at the local store that has citron flavour, and I'm kind of curious about trying it.

I feel kind of miserable because I really don't want to miss judo. Our new instructor is great, and last class was very worthwhile. But obviously it makes sense to just rest. I just wish I didn't have to.

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Sometimes I'm not satisfied with the way something came out, but then somebody comments positively on it. And then I realize, oh - I feel about it the way I do because I made it. (This happened today.)

Like, there was a vision in my head of how I wanted the thing to be, and then the result isn't what I had hoped, and that's frustrating and disappointing. But somebody reading it (or looking at it in the case of visual art) won't know about all that, because they didn't make it! They can't see inside my head! Whooooa! And if somebody else made this thing, I'd probably think it was all right. (Maybe not super duper amazing, but all right, and sometimes that's all you want!)

I think also, partly, I get very self-conscious when posting something that's the fic equivalent of rent-lowering gunshots. Like, I put upon myself this expectation that if I write something that a lot of people aren't into, I need to make it extra awesome to make up for that. But, nah. I can write whatever! And it doesn't have to be amazing! It can just be a thing! It doesn't matter!

It's always nice to have little moments of clarity like this.