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I've been feeling so anxious lately.

A significant part of it is likely due to general mental blah on account of lack of sunlight. I mean, it's hard to be sure, but that's the only thing I can actually point to. Aside from like, general ambient stress, of course.

It's dark when I leave home, and the sun sets so early that there's like... ten minutes of sunlight in my afternoons, after work. I wanted to go out for a walk yesterday afternoon, but it was bitterly cold, so I just... no.

I have been diligent about taking my vitamin D pills, but ugh, I should probably see about digging out my lightbox. I don't wanna (I hate using that thing) but it might help. And I should probably make the effort to get out for walks on my days off - at least, on the days when it isn't -30C.

Unrelated: I bought some new undergarments the other day. Wore them for the first time today. It felt so strange - like, I hadn't expected to feel so tidy and put-together, but that's how it was. It's amazing how good it can feel to wear clothes that aren't too big, even if it's just underwear.