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New and unexpected side-effect of current anxiety: Loss of appetite!

This is very strange. Normally, I react to this stuff by eating my feelings. But currently, I constantly feel like I'm gonna vom (well, okay, it's not that bad) and I hardly want to eat anything at all. And certainly no sweet things (very unappealing) or coffee (makes my stomach turn, not to mention I'm already high-strung).

Supper goes down fine; I don't feel any desire to eat, but I also don't actually feel sick. But any snacks have been limited to like... celery sticks....

Not going to lie, I am not minding this at all (even if whatever my anxiety is doing lately sucks). The way things usually goes intersects really badly with my already-disordered eating and just makes everything worse. So this is... actually not bad?

But on the other hand, UGH, what NOW, not yet another thing! Do I really wan to deal with new symptoms/brand new ways for this fuckery to manifest? No. For fuck's sake.