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Fffffffffffu
I really wish my brain would stop going haywire every time I get even the slightest urge to talk to somebody I don't know.
Especially when it's ON THE INTERNET and it's someone I'm PAYING TO DO THINGS.
Crap goddamnit sonova --
Anxiety sucks so much.
[edit]
Actually, you know what. This is STUPID.
And because it's stupid, I'm going to DO THE THING.
(And since I've just said it, that means I have to do it. Yes. Hello, accountability!)
...But damn, is it ever stupid.
[Edit II: Electric Boogaloo]
I did the thing.
I sound like a stupid airhead every time I open my metaphorical mouth, but it doesn't matter. I DID THE THING.
...You know, it utterly amazes me that I've come across people who think that I'm cool and collected, considering THIS (that is, the above) is frequently how I feel about, like, lots of things.
"I'm too nervous to talk to this person! They'll think I'm stupid/annoying/obnoxious/clueless/an utter cabbagehead!"
[/opens tab to comment anyway]
[/types comment]
[/deletes everything]
[/closes tab]
[/repeats 10 times]
...But at least I DID THE THING this time. At least there is that.
Especially when it's ON THE INTERNET and it's someone I'm PAYING TO DO THINGS.
Crap goddamnit sonova --
Anxiety sucks so much.
[edit]
Actually, you know what. This is STUPID.
And because it's stupid, I'm going to DO THE THING.
(And since I've just said it, that means I have to do it. Yes. Hello, accountability!)
...But damn, is it ever stupid.
[Edit II: Electric Boogaloo]
I did the thing.
I sound like a stupid airhead every time I open my metaphorical mouth, but it doesn't matter. I DID THE THING.
...You know, it utterly amazes me that I've come across people who think that I'm cool and collected, considering THIS (that is, the above) is frequently how I feel about, like, lots of things.
"I'm too nervous to talk to this person! They'll think I'm stupid/annoying/obnoxious/clueless/an utter cabbagehead!"
[/opens tab to comment anyway]
[/types comment]
[/deletes everything]
[/closes tab]
[/repeats 10 times]
...But at least I DID THE THING this time. At least there is that.
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Speaking of knowing where you're coming from, remember last year when we were in BC in the same time and I knew we were going to be in BC in the same time but I didn't tell you until it was too late to actually try and maybe do something about it because I thought that maybe you kind of didn't like me?
Yeah, social anxiety is an utter cabbagehead.
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WELL THEN.
Yyyep. Social anxiety SUCKS.
(Also, at no point have I ever disliked you. I mean, I'm sure you're aware of this, but I'm just saying!!)
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