*HUGS* I understand how you feel. I panic even thinking about calling or contacting people I've known for a while because of reasons, and I just assume I'll be bothering them and any interruption from me would be annoying them (so I just keep my mouth shut XD ) I can only ever contact exchange mods privately, seldom in the exchange communities because, again, just can't do it. This type of anxiety just sucks. But you're no airhead! :) Your moments of anxiety does not define you.