yuuago: (Tistow - JackAnna - Joy)
☆ Today was very relaxing. Aside from cleaning and running a couple of errands, I did nothing but loaf around, read a little, and watch art streams. It was nice! This past week has been so stressful, and I think I really needed to... decompress a bit, I guess you could say. But hooo boy, I'd best not repeat this tomorrow. One day of loafing is quite enough, thank you.

☆ Noms have opened for [community profile] trickortreatex! Whoo! I'm really looking forward to this exchange. The 300-word minimum is just perfect for my tastes right now, really. Now, to get that letter written. I'm not sure how I'll even be able to decide what to request... Narrowing it down is going to be so hard. Especially since this is character-based matching, rather than pairings. Hmmm....

☆ My parents are on vacation, which means that I'm alone in the house, which means I'm able to practice cooking without imposing on anyone or annoying anybody with the mess or using up ingredients that are reserved for something else or subjecting anybody to my failures. Huzzah. It's so ridiculous - I can make desserts just fine; I can't think of a single time I've ever messed up when making something sweet. But cooking actual, you know, food? Well, I'm essentially not allowed to do it unless everyone else is absent or incapacitated, because it usually turns out wrong (not inedible, just... not good). It's not like I'm magically going to get better at it in the span of these few days, of course, but every attempt is one step toward sucking less! Yeah!

☆ Reading: Finished Trans/Portraits*. I was expecting it to be interesting - and it was - but it was also really good. This book is made up of snips of interviews with trans people commenting on various subjects related to being transgender in the USA, and it provides a wide variety of trans perspectives; there was a lot of effort toward showing how broad and varied the experience is, and how there's no singular way to exist. Worth a read if that subject interests you. This book has been on my radar for a while, since the local library has it, but I didn't get around to reading it until now because... well, this book, like most of the other nonfiction LGBT books at our library, is focused on the USA. And while I'm glad that they have these, I'm really more interested in the subject as it applies to Canada, for obvious reasons. So I've been kind of poking around these books and getting frustrated because, argh, this is almost what I want, but not quite.... (Clearly this means I need to research around for titles that are relevant to Canada, and inter-library them or something, but ugh, effort.)

☆ It's starting to get a little bit cooler now. I'm glad for it; for a while there, summer was a little too much for me to handle. Have a lovely weekend, everyone.

Pride YMM~

Aug. 26th, 2017 08:18 pm
yuuago: (Norway - Tea)
Today was... busy.

The Pride YMM event was on today! And I went! And I dressed up, of course, and it was really warm with that wig on, of course. But my makeup was awesome and my blue hair looked great.

AND, I talked to three complete strangers, and had brief but friendly conversations, and did not die from anxiety! In fact, I hardly felt anxious at all during those brief talks, which was... unexpected and very atypical.

Also, I introduced myself with the name I plan to publish under (if I do come up with anything submit-worthy for that magazine), and it felt natural to use it, so that's great.

The event itself was... underwhelming, which is what I expected. Typical of any Fort McMurray public gathering, honestly. xD At least there was live music? (They tried!) And lots of rainbow everything everywhere, of course. :D It was supposed to go 4 hours, but I left halfway through, after the speeches, because I'd had more than enough crowds for one day. It was enough to show up, anyway.

The important part is that there was a lot of people! Of all ages! Way more people than I was expecting to see. And, at least during the time I was there, there were no... well, homophobic assholes protesting the event, or anything like that. It was just a nice, low-key, family-friendly thing, and I'm really happy that we were able to have something like this, because I was so worried that it would go badly.

I feel very... well, I've never felt supported here, in this regard, by the city overall. But it feels good to know that people like me are willing to try to carve out some sort of niche here, and if we get together, maybe we can actually do something.

Maybe, if Pride YMM decides to hold something similar next year, I'll volunteer for it. I was actually considering volunteering to help with setup this time around, but decided not to because it felt like biting off more than I could chew. (Plus, I'm dog-sitting, and I can't leave them home unattended for that many hours.) But... next year, maybe.
yuuago: (DenNor - Be with you)
Ugh, I am Not Looking Forward to the rest of this week.

Grumble grumble grumble )

Yyyyeahhh. So. Lots of things that I don't want to do, but that need to be done anyway. Joy.

Upside: I remembered a nice little thing that I saw at the cafe this weekend. When I was at the cafe, I saw that there were some infocards advertising Pride YMM. <3 <3 <3 I did not expect to see that at all. I would have expected it at the small indie place downtown (where I did see one pinned to the message board last week), but I wouldn't have expected them at a major chain. It just... It's such a small thing, but it felt so good to see that.

I'm pretty excited about this, even though it's nearly an entire month away. Need to decide how I'll do my makeup for it... I have plenty of bright colours; it's just a matter of deciding which ones. 8) And of course there's always the question of: dark lipstick, or no? I love black, and I have one that wears really well (it's the one by MUFE, best I've ever tried) but hmm, in the August heat, I really don't know.... Not to mention that black lipstick is so high-maintenance in general; I would wear it more often if it weren't such a pain in the ass. IT TRANSFERS SO MUCH, no matter what. And forget about trying to, say, drink coffee while you're wearing it. Hooo boy. (Yes, yes, I know, all lipsticks transfer, but... there's a world of difference between a good NARS matte vs every black lipstick I've ever tried in my life, I'm just saying.)

Oh, and I've ordered a wig for it, since I couldn't find the ones that I had in storage. I'm a little unsure about the quality - I had a choice between a nice black one, or an okayish blue one, and... While black is probably more wearable, well, fuck it. It's Pride, and I want to have blue hair. 8) 8) 8) I'm sure I can tame it to look decent, anyhow.

It's nice to have something to look forward to.

Also, I checked this morning, and the rainbow crosswalk has not been vandalized. I'm surprised and pleased.
yuuago: (Spiritual - Marzanna - Close)
☆ Driving once again leaves me frustrated. I have difficulty lining up the vehicle when parking, and of course my father is no help. "You just have to line it up along the imaginary centre line and -" Dude, if you didn't notice, I have difficulty with spatial processing... grumble, grumble. Yes, it does indeed look like another professional lesson is in order - with the last one, we didn't have much time to practice parking at all. Something to focus on for the next....

☆ Pleasant surprise today: RAINBOW CROSSWALK. Saw it from the bus while I was heading to work. Looks like Pride YMM's request was granted. I'm so glad. It's just so nice to see. ...Part of me is like "Just wait, it'll be vandalized before the end of the week" but - hopefully that won't actually happen, and when I go downtown on Saturday morning I'll be able to get some pictures of it. <3

☆ Year in Hereafter: Fuck yeah, the print version is finally available! *_* Via gumroad. I'm very happy about this. <3 It'll be SO nice to read it through in print... Paper format is just so much more to my taste. (And shipping isn't as much as I thought it would be, which was nice.) I had been thinking about paying for a second set to do a raffle, similar to what I did with the SSSS book, but I don't know if that will be possible at this time for various reasons. ...Anyway. Comic-wise, we're moving toward the pages I have seen previews of. 8) I am extremely excited. 8) EXTREMELY.

Trivial personal former relationship venting )
yuuago: (DenNor - Be with you)
Looks like I need to read the local paper more often: First Fort McMurray pride event to be held in August
(And there's also a more recent article from CBC)

I was going to say "I'm surprised we even have any kind of Pride organization". Had never even heard of it until I saw the municipal twitter refer to it today. But it turns out they're brand new as of this year, so... that would explain things.

Must admit, I did raise an eyebrow a little bit at this:

Rensmaag [A member of the committee], who identifies as a member of the LGBTQ community, said she is not sure why there have not been more Pride events held in Fort McMurray in the past.

The most recently held event, called "Pride at the Pub," was celebrated in 2013 at Bailey's Pub. The gathering was marred when several individuals stole a Pride flag hung to celebrate the event and burned it in the parking lot.


Ah, yes... I wonder why there have not been more Pride events. Such a mystery. Especially since there were so many people who wondered what all the fuss was about, and talked about that flag-burning as if the people who did it had done nothing wrong. (The stuff I heard at work the day after this happened... Well. You know.)

Anyway. This thing is happening on August 26th. That's a Saturday. That means I can definitely go, as long as it's during the day. So, I will. This isn't a "maybe".

The idea kind of terrifies me, I will admit. My biggest worry is what if somebody from work sees me, because I'm not out at work, and if somebody found out, it could (and likely would) cause problems. But the people I work with are not the sort who would go within a kilometre of this event, so it should be okay. Plus, the square it will be held in is very close to one of my favourite cafes, as well as the main transit terminal, and I know the area very well, so... plenty of escape routes if things get weird, or if I get nervous, and admittedly getting nervous without reason is about 9000% more likely to happen than anything else.

It's embarrassing to admit that I am afraid; it's embarrassing to be afraid. When I was in university, I was never afraid. I was in my school's pride organization; it was the first club I joined, and I went to every meeting. When my SO visited from Halifax, or when I went there, we held hands whenever we were out, and didn't give a damn who saw us. Whenever people asked about my engagement ring, I gave the plain facts about it. I don't remember ever feeling like I had to hide.

But Wolfville and Halifax are not Fort McMurray, and Nova Scotia is not Alberta. And I'm at a very different life stage now than I was at that time. So... I guess it's not entirely unreasonable to feel this way, but I'm still going to be disgruntled that I do feel it.

Oh, well.

I wonder if Pride YMM will get permission to have the crosswalks painted like rainbows. That would be cute.

Braindump

Sep. 23rd, 2016 10:11 pm
yuuago: (Estonia - Unease)
Just a load of emo, really. )
yuuago: (SSSS - Emil - Reading)
I broke my ereader by dropping it on a cement floor the other day. Knew this would happen eventually. There are many reasons I prefer paper books, and that is one of them. It was an old-ass one - a Kobo Original; they were discontinued ages ago - so it isn't as if I broke some fancy new gadget, but I'm still not looking forward to replacing it.

...Anyway.

On Hold: The Miniaturist by Jessie Burton. I was reading this one on the aforementioned Kobo when it met its unfortunate demise. Was about halfway through, and pretty cheesed off at having to stop for the moment, because I was enjoying it immensely.

Currently Reading: The Burying Ground by Janet Kellough. This is from that mystery series set in Canada during the mid-1800s. Like On the Head of a Pin, I found it a little bit difficult to get into at first, but once things started to actually get going, I enjoyed it. ...I confess, it always feels a little bit weird to read things set in Canada, especially if it's genre fiction rather than literary fiction, because usually I have to specifically seek this stuff out. I mean, if I'm at the bookstore, and I pick up a novel, chances are it will not be set here, and it won't be by a Canadian author either. The local place carries very few Canadian authors, aside from big names like Atwood and... well, I'm not sure who else. Sad state of affairs.

Anyway, back to this novel. So far, it's pretty good, though reading it is a little bit awkward. It references a lot of things that I feel I should know about, but don't. The Upper and Lower Canada rebellions, for instance. In school, my eyes kind of glazed over when we were studying anything Canada-related that didn't involve polar exploration/the search for the northwest passage. Or Louis Riel. Or the War of 1812. So, for some things to do with this series, I feel like I'm missing some context. Oh well, some day I'll get my act together and re-learn all the stuff that went in one ear and out the other. Maybe.

As for the novel itself - Cut for maybe-spoilery stuff + personal blather )

Reading Next: Well, I'm going to finish reading The Miniaturist as soon as I have my new e-reader, but other than that, I have no clue. I wasn't able to get to the library this past weekend, so hopefully when I go there this weekend, I'll find something cool.
yuuago: (A Redtail's Dream - Together)
Finished reading: Witches Abroad by Terry Pratchett. Not my favourite Witches book, but it wasn't bad. I think I spoke more in detail about it in previous entries. I think I like the Witches best in their own context - this is something I always feel every time they're taken outside of it. It just doesn't click with me as well as they usually do.

Currently reading: Magic's Pawn by Mercedes Lackey. This is my first time re-reading the Last Herald-Mage trilogy in about a decade, and I'm feeling pretty overwhelmed. I didn't remember much about the novels themselves, only the emotions; and all that stuff is coming flooding back. I just - the Valdemar books, but more specifically this trilogy, meant so much to me as a kid. And yeah, they're cheesy and sparkly and the writing isn't really very good, but I identified with Vanyel so much. And it meant so much that there was a character like him in published, mainstream fiction.

Cut for more personal blather )

Anyway! The novel itself - well, it's proving to be a very quick read. I can't remember if I used to breeze through this author's stuff, but maybe I did. It's fun, though. These books are so sparkly and I always love some good cheese. Can't say I'm crazy about Tylendel, though - I mean, I appreciate that Vanyel loves him, but... eh. If I remember right, I was always more fond of Stefan. (Leaving aside that they're technically the same...) Anyway, I'm looking forward to reading the rest of the trilogy, at least. Things are just getting started.

But ughhh oh man. Reading this now, I can definitely see that there's a heavy Lackey influence in my writing, even after all these years. Still. On the one hand: Kind of embarrassing. On the other: I regret nothing.

Reading next: ...I have no idea. I set aside some books for hold when I was at the library, but at the time there was that whole power outage nonsense, so who knows if they were actually put on hold or not. :Va We shall see.

What even

Mar. 6th, 2016 05:18 pm
yuuago: (SSSS - Emil - Shrug)
☆ Today just did noooot work out the way I wanted. Headed downtown, like I usually would. Planned to get lunch at this one nice cafe near the transit station, buuut it was closed. Bummer. Headed to the library to pick up some new books, but the power went out while I was browsing, and everyone was booted out of the building, which means I didn't get my books after all. And... it also means that writing club Did Not Happen. щ(◉Д◉щ) Well, damn.

☆ Buuuut even though nothing really went right, I ain't even mad. It wasn't a bad day. The weather was nice, I ended up going to Starbucks after the library nonsense and managed to write some fic anyway, aaand I just feel pretty good in general, so - no harm done. But geeze, what a waste of time.

☆ An upside: During what little time I was able to browse in the library, I finally found out where the Native literature section is, and ahhhh it's a lot bigger than I thought it would be! *_* AND (and and and!) there's a new volume of poetry by Gregory Scofield! AHH! It's been a while since I last mentioned his work, but he's a Metis/Cree poet whose work I really, really like. (And he's gay, too - wtf, how did I forget that? I've read his memoir, and the subject comes up in his poetry sometimes too, one would think I'd remember that... mind like a sieve, I have one.) Anyway, his work is really good, so I was super excited to see that there is a volume out that I wasn't aware of. AND also there were a bunch of Thomas King books that I had been meaning to read... and tons of other authors that I had never even heard of. SO hopefully next week will be free of power outages (?!) so that I can grab some of these awesome books and stick my nose in them. Yes.

☆ I finished another SSSS fic; some Emil/Lalli h/c fluff (Salve). Which means I've already finished the "finish something that isn't for an exchange" not-challenge challenge. But I'm going to try to write others before this round is done on May 01. Maybe something along similar lines to this one - by that I just mean "h/c in which Emil is the one getting hurt". Because man, do I ever love that kind of thing, and this fandom needs more of that. Must confess, he's my favourite punching bag. Or at least my favourite whump-target for this fandom. :D Though I eventually plan to play around with some of the others too - or at least, well. Okay, I'll say it plain, I want to write Sigrun whump. ;V BUT first I need to think of a good plot, and that will have to wait until after some of the stuff with due dates is finished.
yuuago: (SSSS - Emil - Reading)
Finished reading: The Raven and the Reindeer by T Kingfisher. ...I thought I wrote something about this, but it turns out I was flailing somewhere else. I think. Anyway, OH MY GOSH, YOU GUYS, GO READ THIS. Rather, go read this if you enjoy: fairytale retellings (of The Snow Queen in particular), magic, talking animals, beautiful setting descriptions, winter, did I mention magic, and f/f romance! And it also had several tough old ladies, which is something I always enjoy (I just really like seeing elderly people in stories, as long as everything turns out okay for them). :D It's unfortunately only available as ebook, but you can find out which sites in particular have it here. Anyway, it's a good quick read, loads of fun, and I expect that it'll become one of my comfort novels, because it's just so cozy.

Currently reading: Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury. This is one classic that I never got around to reading in school, and... still hadn't managed to get around to reading until now. I'm not far into it at all, but so far I enjoy it. There's something about the texture of the writing that I'm really enjoying. So, depending on how the rest of the book goes, I might need to take a look into Bradbury's other works as well.

Reading next: Not sure. I picked up a novel called The White Magic Five and Dime by Steve Hockensmith & Lisa Falco. Apparently it's... a mystery? With magic? And tarot? Anyway, it's from the library, so I suppose I'll have to read it some time soon. Other than that, I'm not sure, though I should probably get around to reading T Kingfisher's The Seventh Bride soon, since I still haven't read it.
yuuago: (Germany - Reading)
Finished reading: The Man Who Spoke Snakish by Estonian author Anders Kivirähk. I was really excited about this book, and it sounded really neat, but I was kind of disappointed. It started off strong, but after a while my attention started wavering.

There were a lot of moments of "debate", mainly on the subject of religion, and primarily (though not always) Pagan vs Christian stuff. And I expected a bit of that going in, since I had the impression that the central conflict revolved around the christianization of Estonia. But if I wanted to read tedious arguments between Christians and Pagans, there are tons of places on the internet that I can do that. And it did indeed get pretty tedious after a while.

This novel is... very discourse-centric, and a tad didactic I think, and I feel like there's a lot that I'm missing - that it's speaking specifically to something that I don't have a lot of personal experience with. Wouldn't be surprised in the least to find out that this is so, but I'm not about to go digging to find answers.

I didn't dislike all of it - I liked the way it started out, and there were some magic-centric parts that were pretty cool. I loved Leemet's friendship with the adders. And his grandfather was really really awesome. But... I feel lukewarm enough about it that I'm not sure I could recommend it.

Also finished reading: Kitchen by Banana Yoshimoto. This book is actually composed of two works, "Kitchen", a short novel, and "Moonlight Shadow", a novella. "Kitchen" is a very touching story of life, death, and dealing with grief. It... might have hit me a bit harder than I expected it to; I think I still have some unresolved issues relating to that. But anyway, I enjoyed it very much; it's a very... warm, cozy, comforting, and romantic story.

It also has something that I didn't expect, as the reviews on the back gave no mention of it: a sensitive and kind and affectionate portrayal of a trans character. Eriko isn't the point-of-view character in the novel, but she's extremely present - the novel largely deals with three characters and their relations to one another, and Eriko is one of those three. And she's just so... she's such a lovely and kind and generous character (and amazingly badass in some ways), and I liked her very much.

That isn't to say that her portrayal isn't without issues, because there are some, but the difficulties that did come up were easy for me to swallow, I think, mainly because her portrayal was so... loving? There was no malice in it. And overall it's a much better illustration than I would have expected of a trans character in a novel written in 1988.

I see that there have been film adaptions of Kitchen... Maybe I will seek them out. It's possible that I would enjoy them very much.

As for "Moonlight Shadow", well, it didn't leave as much of an impression on me, but it's definitely worth reading, for reasons that I can't discuss without spoiling the whole thing.

Currently reading: The Dark Tower Part 1: The Gunslinger by Stephen King. I've been meaning to read this for a while, because people keep quoting the opening line in certain places, and... it's a really good opening line. Anyway, I'm only about 50 pages in, but so far I love it. I hear that the series gets a little weird as it goes on, so I'm going to keep that in mind, but if I enjoy this one, I might check the rest out as well.

Reading next: I have no idea. I might pick up another Banana Yoshimoto novel when I head to the library on the weekend; they have a few of her other books, and I did like the one that I read.

✿✿✿

Jun. 26th, 2015 09:37 pm
yuuago: (Denmark - Smile)
✿ The Supreme Court of the USA has ruled in favour of country-wide marriage equality. [Link] Congratulations, neighbours!

✿ Canada is playing England tomorrow. I'm looking forward to watching it. Haven't been keeping up with the Women's World Cup this year, on account of work being busy and then vacation after that, but I'm happy that we're still in the game - but it'll be even better if we kick England's ass. 8)

✿ Sat down to watch a horror movie with the gang tonight. Feels good - I rarely miss things from home while on vacation, but I did miss this. <3 Had trouble getting into the movie we were watching, though - The Lazarus Effect. I think there's something about me and this kind of scenario that just doesn't click. There were some pretty good scares, though.

✿ With the time I'll have to myself this weekend, I'm hoping that I'll be able to make some headway with writing. I have the roughs for two fics, and hopefully I'll be able to polish up both of them. Not necessarily to completion, but better than they are now. One is that Hetalia + Fury Road fic I was working on, and the other is some Redtail's Dream fic with Hannu and Ville. In both cases, I'm having trouble with getting the voices right. Australia is really difficult. So is Hannu. I will probably have luck finding someone to help me with the Hetalia thing - it isn't as if I don't know any Australians in this fandom, so maybe I can poke somebody - but the Redtail one will be more difficult to find advice for. ... I know some people on ffa have read it, maybe I should throw the request there and see if I get some bites? After I tinker with the draft. Argh, I don't know.

✿ My notifications seem to be a bit borked, so I might not reply to things for a while. Or at all. 6_9 DW, what are you doing?
yuuago: (Frozen - Elsa)
I wish I could Elsa it up and say that the cold doesn't bother me, but alas, no. It's -30C out and it's just going to get worse. Why do I live in northern Alberta, again?! ... Oh, wait. Because this is where the jobs are. Right.

Did some last-minute (online) shopping today! I think that's everything, except for one thing that I need to pick up in town this weekend. And then I can start wrapping and get it over with and I won't have to think about it any more. And cards - I need to do that, too. Man, for someone who doesn't like Christmas much, I'm sure busy with holiday stuff. I don't know how this happens every year.

[personal profile] moonamaija recommended a drama to me, called Salatut elämät - apparently it's cute and there's a cute gay couple in it and I should watch it. "You'll improve your Finnish!" she says. Might be good, since currently the Finnish I know is only enough to greet someone, curse them out, and then apologize for it. Well, that's all you need to know in order to get around in Finland, joo? (... I'm so glad that I was with friends while I was there. Using English was fine, but it was comforting knowing that I had someone who could translate if a problem came up!)

This entry is all over the place. Here, to make it even more random, have a link to a nice Russian song, called "Kon (The Horse)", recent but in traditional style.
yuuago: (Germany - Reading)
July 15th: Argentina legalises same-sex marriage

Reading this after waking up this morning made me very happy. Even though there are bad things going on in the world, there is still positive change happening. It's good news. Hopefully more countries in Latin America (and the rest of the world) will follow suit.

On a less political note, this is neat:

18th-century ship found at Trade Centre site

It's so cool how things like that can pop up in unexpected places. I don't hear about it happening in America as much, so that's kind of different.

...As for myself, I have been doing absolutely nothing interesting lately. Well, that's not entirely true. I've been studying French a bit more. I'm still extremely bad at it, but at least I'm getting better at hearing spoken French and identifying what is being said. I can put together some simple sentences too... I mean it's all extremely basic, but considering for the most part my knowledge consists only of "Je ne parle pas francais", I think it's a little bit of an improvement. :|

Okay, I've been watching a lot of movies too, recently. Partly it's because I've decided I will use this method to relax myself, but it's also because mum sent me a bunch of dvds for my birthday, so I've been going through them. It's... nice. Nice to just sit and watch something and work on my knitting during that, and not be concerned about communicating with people. "Me" time. It's good. I should spend time unplugged more often, I think. Argh.
yuuago: (Sweden - Muted)
Please take note:

Not all "opinions" are okay.

Homophobia is not okay. The belief that people who are not straight are wrong, unclean, or inherently bad is not just an "opinion". It is homophobia.

Not all beliefs are valid. Not all beliefs are okay for a person to have. "Opinions" like the above are what lead to situations where people are assaulted, even killed for no reason other than being gay or even just being suspected of being gay. This happens even in "safe" countries like Canada and the United States.

If you think anti-gay sentiment of any kind is "just an opinion", and that it's okay for anyone to have that opinion, please let me know so I can remove you from both my friends list and my life.
yuuago: (Estonia - Unease)
Sonoma County CA separates elderly gay couple and sells their home without their consent

Frankly, I find it terrifying that things like this can still happen.

I'd comment more, but I'm too full of rage to really form coherent sentences right now. I'll just say this: This is the 21st century, and things like this shouldn't happen. But they do happen, as we see here.

I'd appreciate it if y'all spread the link around your FLists. I'll be on the lookout for more sources - this one was written only today, so maybe by Monday we'll have some better ones. I'll be updating this entry as I come across more. By the way, the linked article contains information at the bottom regarding contacting the county's paper, Press Democrat (owned by the New York Times), to do reporting on the issue. So far they have not reported on it.

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The following are basically the same as above, just alternates:
The report at NCLR
The report at ONTD_P
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