May. 12th, 2017

yuuago: (Small Trolls - Veeti - Skygazing)
One thing that's been endlessly annoying me lately is that I don't have room in my bedroom for an altar.

...Mind you, I don't have room in my bedroom for very much. Man, this place is a mess. I should take care of that. You know, in my vast amounts of free time.

I have a mess of Feelings re: spiritual stuff as of late, and it's kind of hard to articulate all of it. So, I won't. Not until I'm more sure about how I feel about anything, at least. Putting things into words is difficult, because sometimes I write something down, and then I look at it an hour later (or a day later, or a week later) and I'm like, "Wait, that isn't quite right, I also mean a million other things in addition to that".

The tl;dr of it, though, is that I like practising more actively. I enjoy it. And the more I do it, the more comfortable I'll be with it. And probably the more comfortable I am with that, the more comfortable I'll be with myself. (And this can apply to completely unrelated things too!)

But it's important for me to remember to not take on too much at once, and not step in too deep at once. Because not only would that be overwhelming, it also wouldn't be appropriate.

So, while there are things that I would like to do (ritual-wise, general practise-wise), it's going to have to wait for a while. And not only is it okay to wait, it's also good to wait. Perfection is impossible, but it is possible to bring things to a more ideal situation, and it's best to do that.

I'm going to try to go out to the woods in the morning... I don't know if I'll bring anything. In terms of Winter, it doesn't matter so much if I do, because she is sleeping. But there's the dead, too, I guess.

I find it really interesting that I can't really conceive of a summer-god. My Winter feels like a nice parallel (though not precise equivalent) to Morena, but I can't imagine a boreal equivalent to Jarilo. Summer here is just... the absence of Winter; it isn't its own person. Maybe if I lived in a place where people grew and harvested things, it would be different. But the boreal forest is not that place.

...Anyway. That's just a tangent. The point is that I've had a lot on my mind lately.


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